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Turn Coat Much Ms. Cookie???

People have repeatedly contacted me talking about this one female on YouTube who used to speak negatively about me over and over again. I never believed she did until recently somebody sent me proof. So I forwarded the proof to her.

Today she was doing a livestream where she was telling people she wasn’t my defender. Even though she spent months talking about the Viper Pit harassing me online we both needed people to understand that I didn’t pay her to defend me. I didn’t ask her to defend me and she isn’t my attack dog. In response I agreed to her saying she wasn’t my proctector and in return she blocked me from responding in her chat. She only used me as a tool to attack The Viper Pit. It was about the principle. I told the truth. Not like it’s anything she denies. We agree.

She then accuses me of sneak dissing. Like I have some kind of fear in my heart to sneak diss. Like I didn’t send her the contents of the email sent to me that contained the proof of her speaking negatively about me. No one is about to accuse me of saying some shit I didn’t say so I wanted her to know exactly what I said in response to the email. That was the purpose of me sending the email.

Inside of her livestream she decides to block me then go in on me without giving me any opportunity to respond. I asked for the link to join her livestream. She had already blocked me. So instead I posted my response on my YouTube Drama Channel.

Bitches be wishy washy. One minute they cool next minute they not….

Here are the contents of said email:

Hello Sister,
I am a subscriber to your channel and have been watching you for a few years. You need to leave the drama alone and make your humorous fun loving videos again. I see you are involved with so much drama with these different crowds online. You need to ride solo on your journey. Get back to making your livestreams and dont trust any of these youtubers. I wanted you to see this video that cluster be did about you and wanted to warn you to not get involved with her. She is really evil and treacherous. She previously made a video dragging you . Here is the receipts verbatim. I would advise you to not make a video about her but just stay far away. Btw when are you going to be back on your main channel again?
https://youtu.be/G8R3YqCNK88 time stamp 3:20 
She doesn’t have your back like she is claiming and cant be trusted 

Also Egypt Ann is exposing Angela bad mouthing you in emails on her channel now she is telling all your personal business be careful sis
https://youtu.be/6BBofbpJjek

Here was my response:

Thank you for sending me this but keep in mind I am a business woman. I am doing what I believe is best for me and my channel. Livestreaming is not what’s up FOR ME. I never liked doing it.  So I don’t do it. Staying out of the drama is what I been doing and what I keep doing. Speaking my truth about it doesn’t mean suddenly I’m being tricked into something. I’m not dumb.  I do realize that people are only on my side when it’s convenient for them. I understand that Cluster B is only after the viper pit. She is just using how they treated me as a tool to attack them.  Angela too. Cluster B & Angela are not #teamsoncerae. These bitches barely like me. I understand that. I’m not being fooled by anyone. Even if Cluster B used to say disrespectful stuff about me what she is saying now is that she is tired of seeing the viper pit hurt others. I know it has nothing to do with me. None of these people are really on my side like that and I get it. I’m not an idiot. Contrary to what you believe I DO NOT TRUST ANYONE. 
#1 Now this clip of Cluster B saying IDK how to hold and gun like she’s seen me hold one, if in fact she is speaking of me is absurd to me. She doesn’t KNOW anything about me or what I’m holding on this end. Best believe I handle myself. I got this Soncerae shit under control. I’m not a gutter rat but I will kill a bitch if need me. I survive. Period. I don’t pretend to be some big bad bitch who spent time in Central California Women’s Facility. I don’t know shit about prison and I don’t want to. But in self defense I’ll do what I have to do. I know how to dot a bitch eye. Step on a toe, chop her in the throat. I got this lolol.
#2 I had no problem exposing people on the internet who harassed me for months or years at a time. So who gives a fuck if Cluster B feels some type of way about me posting their legal name. Fuck them. They shouldn’t have been bullying me from a private account. 
#3 No one is going to defend or protect Soncerae like ME. NO ONE. Not Cluster B. No Angela….NO ONE. 
#4 In the clip attached I believe that Cluster B did not understand this situation months ago. And with time she has a better understanding of what has happened to me. Does the bitch like me? No. Is she my friend? No. I believe she is just expressing her opinion even if at one point in time she was guilty of the very thing she claims other people are doing to me. I DON’T CARE. I do not know Cluster B at all. I have no problem with her and I most likely never will. As long as she doesn’t come for my kids, money or physically come around me we are fine. She is on her side of the internet I’m on mine. 
People make assumptions all of the time and pretend like they are looking out for me when really I know what’s up. 
Take you for instance…..you are part of the problem too. Because you watch this type of shit. You have to be a supporter of EVERYBODY LOVES SONCERAE which is a sock puppet profile from a person who has lied about me on so many occasions. I got his last channel deleted. The person behind this channel isn’t an innocent vigilante trying to save Soncerae. He’s an asshole trying to keep mess going. Especially by him reminding everyone about what Cluster B said about me months ago. 
Cluster B is not innocent. Neither is Angela, Nylah, Taz, Bomb Cherry, DaNini, Warren, Lord Gaelick, STL4U, Chris Law, Minister Jap, E Alyce, L Boogie…..I can go on and on. All of us has said something in a reactionary manner being misinformed about another human being. I’m over it. Even I’ve done. Keep in mind please that these bitches and niggas can’t fool me. I know they game. I may play the part online that I need to but I”m not stupid. I learned the lessons already. I’m a real woman I keep it 100% and if anyone has a problem with me I’m sure they’ll reach out to me privately and say that. Anyone speaking about me negatively or positively online is doing that shit for entertainment purposes including Cluster B. 


Have a nice fuckin day.

The messiness is real in these streets. Now Cluster B mad because I agree with her?

The Messy Mind of Mona Symone

The recent behavior of my sister and fellow content creator Mona Symone has saddened me. It is extremely unfortunate when women of color have unresolved misunderstandings. Miscommunication that can easily be ironed out if both parties listen to understand instead of attempting to undermine.

When it comes to mental health issues, black women are more likely to experience them due to lower income, poor health, multiple role strain, and the β€œdouble minority status” of race and gender. In Mona Symone’s case she has Asperger’s Disease & Suicide Ideation. I did not know anything about the mental disorder until she explained it to me.Β  It affects her ability to effectively socialize and communicate. She gets confused and overwhelmed easily. While extremely intellectual in most areas Mona however, is greatly challenged in the emotional intelligence department. Others have used her slight form of Autism against her prompting her to second guess, get confused and over process information. When frustrated because of this Mona will lash out in ways that are unhealthy.

I’m not going to use any of my platforms to expose her past or present. Nor will I spread lies or express all of my personal thoughts concerning her. It’s unnecessary.

I am displeased with her recent behavior but it’s nothing for me to have a huge tantrum over. I’m an adult and want to handle her poor decisions with a level of maturity grace and class. I will not stoop to low frequencies just to address her. This is just a misunderstanding.

She has decided to use YouTube.com maliciously by sharing our private text messages. Though I am not ashamed of our correspondence after her negative behavior I still believe that the messages should have stayed private. Before she released our text messages she hosted a livestream called “Let’s Discuss The Soncerae Interview” where she was supposedly allowing others to comment on a Premiere shared minutes earlier of her and I discussing an interview Tommy Sotomayor did with my son’s Father & his ex wife. During her impromptu livestream she allowed trolls and people who have literally stalked me for years to call in, disrespect me and spread more vicious lies. They did not address the interview at all. It surprised me that she’d use her platform in such a manner. She could have at least gave me a heads up so I could call in and defend myself. I tried calling but she didn’t answer so I texted. After confronting her she made accusations and spoke disrespectfully to me. In response I wished her the best in her future endeavors and removed any promotional material of hers from all of my social media platforms.

Last year Mona was severely chastised on YouTube by hundreds of content creators and lost thousands of subscribers when she was found to have faked her death and staged a botched suicide. Her wife was said to have falsely announced her death on Mona’s community tab, April Fools Day. During this time she also began feuding with popular gossip Vlogger TashaK after Mona interviewed Rap Artist CardiB during her fued with Rap Artist Nicki Minaj. Other popular YouTubers have shared the same negative experience I have with Mona. Tampa, FL Rap Artist Khia viciously attacked her on TS Madison’s Channel during an episode of Queen’s Court. Other YouTubers such as Treecey & SweetMa4Life have also created videos addressing Mona’s disrespectful behavior towards them and others.

Because she lost so many subscribers and has low view count we decided to work together to improve both of our channels. We had plans to create a positive show for women of color where we discuss topics that can help improve their lives and #levelup.

Please listen to the audio below to hear more about the series of events and attached are our private text messages she released in part. Mona was warned that this type of thing would happen and people from both sides would contact us to encourage us to divide instead of work together to improve. She promised she wouldn’t respond nor be anxious to entertain drama and pick sides. Ultimately she did the very thing she said she wouldn’t.

Yesterday, after our last group of texts she joined another livestream on an obsessed troll’s channel and began discussing me negatively.

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YouTube StreetRat Egypt Ann Can’t Wait Until Soncerae Dies” on YouTube

Dealing with the troll infestation on YouTube has gotten old and tired to me. There is nothing less entertaining than complete strangers coming for me like I did something personal to them. I received an email. Ofcourse I did. *rolls eyes*. Ya never know….trolls orchestrate shit all of the time. These beef manufacturers want you at war with others so bad they accuse you of all types of espionage meanwhile are the catalysts for chaos. Flinging accusations, talking too much. Bullying others but sware they the victim. I just don’t have the maliciousness in my heart to go as far as these people do. Anyway Ms Montgomery *rolls eyes again* portrays herself as the whistle blower who is trying to save me from hell’s demons and informs me that Egypt Ann (a low budget bird without ambition that I have consistently said I have no issue with) wished death on me. I spoke more about it in this video. I’ve also attached the screenshots.

A Loved Woman’s Behavior

You will always be able to tell when a woman is loved. When a woman is supported you will know. When a woman is wealthy and healthy you can tell. Her character. Her behavior. How she speaks. How she talks. How she walks. Everything about her will exude confidence.

There are a lot of women out there under the impression that they are women worthy of another’s envy. There are powerless women out there who will do whatever they can to destroy the reputations of women they aspire to be. These women are to be forgiven because they do not know what they do. They do not know how to cope with what they feel it what they think. There are a lot of women out there who try to find love in the wrong places. When they aren’t getting what they need in real life a lot of times they look for it on the internet.

There are women in Loveless marriages. There are women with low self-esteem. There are women who are hurting because of their past pain. They are women with mental illnesses unchecked. There are women who are educated. But as a woman the worst thing that you can do is chastise criticize or judge another. Living in a glass house throwing stones and hiding your hands will eventually be the catalyst for your world’s shattering. Listen to my latest podcast by clicking on the YouTube video below.

Finally, Introducing My Son To His Father #SingleMomLife

Teaching my son manhood and fatherhood it’s going to be one of the hardest things I’ll have to do with my life. What I teach my son can make or break him as a man. Inside of this podcast I talked about how I’m introducing my son to his father without his father being present.

How do I teach my son how NOT to be the man his father is?

https://www.spreaker.com/episode/21113462

I Wished He Loved Me Like I Love Me

Negativity tends to linger. It’s like a bad fungus. It’s cancerous. Some people dwell on something negative for a long time even if something positive is equal or more present. Because men process negativity differently from women I believe that most of the rumors spread about me come from men externalizing a sense of sadness they felt after I rejected them. I don’t have issues with a lot of men on social media. Especially not on YouTube. I’ve done dozens of collaborations, livestreams and commentary with and for men. Originally my content online was designed for men. With time I noticed that men who had an emotional attachment to me or some sort of attraction to me began using the internet or the power of the tongue to lash out and release frustration.

Keep in mind that I NEVER initiated any type of drama with ANY man on or offline. Cause and effect is real. For every action is a reaction. So when we began to analyze where most of my troubles online originate from the path is clear. I will spare you with details.

It kind of reminds of the Trickle Down Theory in economics.

When I was a model of fantasy and femininity for 6 years of my life I never thought in a million years that I’d forever be hypersexualized. A source of income and stepping stone for my career was now being used as part of my personal life. My personal life was and is still very different. I was very private and restricted. I’ve spent most of my adult life celibate. As you read this entry I’ve been celibate for 2 years. I live the complete opposite of the image portrayed of me online and in magazines. It wasn’t until part of my career was over that I began exploring my sexuality and becoming polyamorous.

The exploitation of women is part of African American culture. I am not an object however I have been dehumanized by men because of this career choice. I’ve never been a porn star, exotic dancer, escort or prostitute however these are all rumors I heard MEN spread about me online. What I’ve noticed about most of the men I’ve ever come in counter with, if they couldn’t have me no one could. If they couldn’t control me they began to try to control how others viewed me. Instead of using my confidence in my body as a tool to empower and inspire women the very men who celebrated my beauty used it to shame and insult me. I began noticing that I was being penalized for something women of other races where encouraged to do. According to BlackburnCenter.org I was dealing with a deeper rooted issue. Before the slave trade took hold in America, European travelers to Africa were both fascinated and appalled by the dress and practices of the Africans that they encountered there. The minimal amounts of clothing worn by Africans (appropriate in a hot climate), the fact that some tribes practiced polygamy, and the seemingly suggestive tribal dances led these Europeans to believe that Africans were sexually lewd. Now it seems like when women of my color exude confidence by showing our bodies we instead are viewed as women with lower self esteem. I felt negatively about my career choice for a long time and after realizing that my behavior was not helping my community I decided to make a change. It was necessary. Stepping away from a toxic culture in media headlined sex sells meant I had to do what I already knew in my heart was right.

This is where my philanthropic work began. I put my time and energy into doing volunteer work and assisting underprivileged African American families. I started speaking at colleges and mentoring young black women. But no matter my efforts and years of productive celebratory behavior, no matter the plethora of photographs and videos of me participating in said behavior my career choice of 6 years always seems to be the focal point of conversation among men. Mostly men I have never had any kind of sexual interaction with.
For many years I’ve been warned about my kindness. And how it has put me in positions with people that gives them the opportunity to misuse me. Those with malicious intent have come into my life and consider my kindness as a weakness. I have some people in my life that I love dearly who took very good care of me. But their were people in my life that exited it by my request. Though I am not perfect they were not the best people in the world. Ergo me asking them to exit. Men have asked me to leave their lives too and I never complained or made a fuss. Men I’ve dated or even men who were slightly attracted to me began trying to destroy my career or finances. Men that no one would have noticed otherwise now began using my name as a way to catapult their own careers. When they speak of me they depict me as a villain or less than the woman I am.
I said in a podcast recently that people rarely remember what happened to you, they only remember how you respond to it. Once I caught wind of these men and their antics I fought for myself. By any means necessary. People often ask me why so many rumors have spread about me. Some believe because I’m so transparent with my life, on YouTube, that must make me an easier topic for gossip. When the truth is there isn’t one person on this planet that hasn’t been gossipped about. Most people just aren’t aware that they are being spoken about. Fear breeds rumors. The more collective anxiety a group has, the more inclined it will be to start up a rumor about a person they are envious of or may believe they are a threat.

For many years on YouTube I was tormented by African American men. YouTube is a stomping ground for men who believe that oppressing women is part of their right of being a man. The red pill community, the underachievers, socially awkward and low hanging fruit conjugate there to complain about their misfortune with women. The torment got worse after someone I interacted with professionally began showing disdain for me being a single mother. He encourages men to not get involved with single mothers. The catalyst being him having his own issues with his biological mother. He takes it out on me. A man I once admired and only wanted success for was now hurting me so bad. One would think that he’d simply respect another woman being as though he has a stepmom who stepped up. It should make him be in support of blended families. When we began working together he never showed any disapproval about me raising my own kids. He was concerned about whether I was single enough to date him. He later on chastised me about my previous career choice, my sexuality and my physical appearance. All things he did not have an issue with while we were working together. People who would defend me online would began being tormented not just by him but by people he gathered together with hatred. These people were stalked and harassed so badly that I had to break ties with them and encourage them to discontinue defending me.

Once I was abandoned during the pregnancy of my son I began using my YouTube channel as a place to spread awareness about a poor choice I made dating a man who is now divorced but once separated while we planned a future together. Even he used the platform to maliciously depict me as someone I was not. This also gave me opportunity to talk about Fatherhood and how most African American men do not respect their women and children. Half of the men in my audience became infuriated. Even the men that my content didn’t apply to. Using my past as reason for why I couldn’t be trusted intellectually. The other half of the men began empowering me and sending me donations. Women even participated in chastising me about my sexuality. I was called a whore, slut, tranny, by my own people. People I had supported in my past. African Americans who saw me post positive content that was designed to teach us how to deal with each other. It hurt me so bad to see my own people tear me down. All over rumors, misinformation, impulsion and mistakes.

People on YouTube began making hundreds of disrespectful videos about me. They incited hatred and were extremely misleading. I had never seen so many people bring up my past as an argument in intellect conversation before. A past some once celebrated me for. One would think I committed murder or sexual assault the way that people spoke of me. People began conforming to a sect of the dark web that took pride in humiliating me online. Losing all sense of order and conduct these people began making irrational statements about me that were obviously illogical. However were only supported in order to get adoration from members of the group. People who were good people before they entered the group began trying to justify their actions in attempts to align their maliciousness with their proper beliefs about their own individual personality. The de-individualized began apologizing to me for their negativity. Even though the cognitive dissonance was entertaining and served it’s purpose for them it caused me a lot of damage. Becoming aware of that damage made them apologize to begin with. There are still people who are a part of that sect that refuse to wake up and take accountability for the torment. This has lasted for 3 long years.

During this time I began to understand that people had a bigger problem with my individualism. Because I did not conform to the group’s way of thinking and promoted diversity I was chastised even more. We all disagree with others and some of the poor choices they have made. However, we must not forget that we have in fact made our own. After seeing hundreds of negative misleading videos made about me, I finally saw an INDIVIDUAL make a positive one. Finally a well thought out assessment. Not one lie was told. Not one insult was flung. It was just a guy with a personal message trying to make change for the greater good and that was something I could relate to. When he first began his research I believe he wanted to speak more about my philanthropic work and career. Unbeknownst to me he wanted to speak about a much more important topic.

The video is only 1 step towards getting people to see me in the light people saw me in before I collaborated with the wrong YouTuber or dated the wrong man. The woman I’ve always been my entire life underneath the pain, misfortune and mistakes. We should acknowledge people’s efforts to rectify situations and improve. This video goes out to the people who think independently and artistically. Those who know better and do better. You are appreciated and loved. Please like this video and subscribe to this channel. Show support to our brother who’s only focus is Black Excellence.

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We must remember that there are different sides to people. We are not 1 dimensional. That’s why none of the people I’ve mentioned above have me harboring hatred in my heart for them. One of these people I can truly say I love. No matter how much he claims to hate me. I just can’t hate him. I don’t like his behavior but I love him as a person. That’s all I have room in my heart for. I just want people to stop judging each other and love one another. Life is too short and we can lose people we should’ve apologized to or supported. We all have things we have to cope with and disappointments as well as mistakes. I take pride in who I am and I always will. Mistakes and all. Hopefully one day the men I’ve loved will turn that hatred that they feel into love for themselves. I want them to realize that I am not their enemy. I am just a woman. One that should be loved, respected, appreciated and forgiven. I am still the woman they once adored. I am at peace either way. May your heart soften for me. I will pray for more guidance during this lovely life of mine and ask God to give you endless blessings.

Jap, through it all under the mask of a nemesis… you are a lover and a friend. Give it time, your heart will heal. You’ll change for the better and so will I. πŸ’™

Please be sure to check out my latest podcast.

The Cult Says: My 1yr old son can’t walk because I punched myself in the stomach during pregnancy so I can miscarry??!!?? πŸ˜ŸπŸ˜•πŸ˜‘

I’ve noticed that when I take the time to discuss what’s meaningful to me and what I take pride in people try to tear it down. I’ve always talked about how honest and real I am so people try to convince others that I’m a liar. I’ve always talked about how transparent I am about my feelings people try to convince others I keep secrets. When I tell my stories people complain about me telling my business when I don’t tell my stories people are complaining that I’m withholding information. I’ve always spoken about how good of a mother I am so people try to convince others I abuse or neglect my kids. People attack my career my accomplishments…..I can’t win for losing. This has made me hate online communities, cliches, mobs and cults. This is why I have pulled back from social media.

When I was pregnant I had a good friend who helped me through it. Her name was Angela. When people online found out we were friends they tried to divide us. I warned Angela that these people would do this so I asked her to stay away from these people. But headstrong Angela convinced me to interact with them via live stream so that we all could unify. Sounds like a good idea in theory. But we soon realized that those people didn’t want to unify. I’ve tried my hardest to stay away from these people. However Angela still tried to keep her friendship with them over her friendship with me. I wasn’t angry I just respected her choice.

With time people began contacting me telling me that Angela was telling others that during my pregnancy I wanted to kill my baby so I punched myself in the stomach so I could miscarry. They also claim that I spoke to Angela in detail about my liver and kidney problems. It didn’t sound right to me and still doesn’t. I can’t imagine Angela lying to me or about me to others.

I never confronted Angela about these things. It didn’t make sense to me because I know that Angela is a strong supporter of womanism. Yes she has shown how unsupportive of me she is but I doubt she would say these vile things about me.

For a few months now people have been leaving comments on social media believing that my son can’t walk because I punched him while in the womb during my pregnancy.

I’m constantly having to block and delete people who post this. There are also people saying that my son is a special needs child. Really, all it would take them doing is going to my son’s YouTube channel RAESINGJUSTICE and they would see videos of my healthy happy 1 year old son.

My son can walk. My son can run. My son loves to dance. My son knows his ABCs and knows words when he hears them and sees. He recognizes colors. My son can read out loud. He is also ambidextrous. He is advanced intellectually for his age. My son is very healthy and anyone can see that he’s just a fun loving toddler.

During the beginning of my pregnancy I was very depressed abandoned betrayed lost emotional and confused. Angela helped me during this time. Because my son’s father Priest betrayed me and decided to skip out I thought about adoption and even abortion. I think all women try to factor in their options and they want to make a conscious decision. I had unwanted abortions in the past for others who didn’t want a baby when I knew I wanted to keep my baby. So this time I chose to keep my son because I am the only one who will love him the way a mother is supposed to. I wanted him so I did what was best for us both. Priest also suggested that I not have an abortion. Abortion always seems like the worst thing I can do. It’s my body. Whatever any woman does with it is her choice.

Because my son is innocent I wasn’t going to let the disappearance of his father be taken out on him. When people say I punched myself in the stomach so I can have a miscarriage because I didn’t want my baby it sounds dumb. Wouldn’t it have just made sense for me to go and get an abortion if I wanted to harm my baby? People lack logic and critical thinking skills when it comes to me and the rumors that they spread to entertain themselves. They are not well thought out.

I do not have liver or kidney problems. I never punched myself in the stomach. I never physically hurt my son. I will never abandon my son. I love him so much. I am so sorry there are people out there who didn’t get to experience the kind of love from family that I share with my kids. I can only imagine how lonely and hurt you are. The person who started this rumor and those that continue to spread it must start thinking first about themselves and what would make them say or believe something so heinous and disheartening.

There are so many family channels on YouTube. There are married couples, single mothers and fathers raising their children in happy healthy homes who post videos and pictures of their children. Not even half of them are harassed and tormented the way people harass and torment me. I want people to simply leave me alone. I don’t bother anyone’s family. It’s people lying saying I have. Look for proof of accusations before you believe them.

I’ve noticed a pattern that all the rumors come from the same group of people from the same online community. I’m not sure why this specific cult of people are so obsessed with me. I don’t know these people personally. Please send me and my family positive energy in hopes that these people discontinue spreading these vicious lies.

I healed from post partum depression and a light form of PTSD from the trauma of being molested, abused and neglected as a child. I’m not ashamed I had to go to counseling. I do not have any other type of mental disorder. Nor would I consider harming any other innocent human being.