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Experiencing Online Harassment; Breaking Down The Haters

(Keep in mind that if you click any of the images inside of this blog they link to another blog entry or website. Also any underlined words are all linked to another blog entry.)What I don’t think I’ll ever understand is why some men think that it’s completely fine to harass women. Consistently speaking negatively about women. Manipulating women. Cheating on women. Gossiping about women. Abusing women. Disrespecting women. With so much ease they do this but can’t take what they dish out. If you notice my opinions as far as men go stay an isolated rant about my son’s father. He deserves every bit of negative commentary I speak about him. Yes I’ll keep speaking about it until I’m tired of doing so and not a second beforehand. It’s been 2 years since we broke up however we have a 17 month old son together that is a constant reminder of his Father and the betrayal associated with him. It’s some internet weirdos out there who actually think that because I talk about my son’s father and my real life experience with him that means it’s ok for them to harass me online. At first it took me a long time to not talk about it every day or break down crying everyday but with time I pretty much got over it. Now when I speak on my YouTube Channel, this blog or My Podcast “The God Queen Live” about my son’s father, Priest, it’s to warn women to never ever get comfortable with a separated man who is definitely headed for divorce. But most importantly don’t be so quick to trust men no matter how kind, honest, consistent, loving and attentive they are. You could be being love bombed by a narcissist. Give it time for his true colors to shine.I trusted a man. One who at the time had a seemingly estranged wife, SaDonya, who was always up in our business, playing little Facebook games. Hounding my social media profiles. What’s even more weird about her was she was oddly trying to convince me that it’s ok to move forward with her estranged husband. She was all for Priest and I being together. She gave me the go ahead and celebrated us starting a relationship while they were still going through divorce proceedings. She was head over heels for someone else she proclaimed. I spoke in specifics about her while including screenshots of her statements in this blog entry called “Cut The Bullshit” . I don’t know what possessed me to think I was safe just because Priest’s mom, brother and SaDonya told me I’d be ok. Why did I trust those people? Why didn’t it occur to me that these people could be lying to me? Of course Priest & SaDonya are officially divorced now but it happened much later than they told me it was.

I remember when Priest and I were breaking up, he believed a ton of lies people on the internet told him. He then started to accuse me of lying to him. See how comfortable he felt with listening to complete strangers about our relationship? I had never lied to him before they reached out to him so why now suddenly did he believe I’d lie to him? They didn’t even show him any type of proof my statements were lies but he just went along with it. Why was that ok to him? To simply listen to other people who were outside of our relationship? People who had never ever met us. I trusted him even though I had caught him in a few BIG lies and a shit load of small ones. I gave him a chance to prove to me that he could be an honest man and keep his promises. I was always honest with him and here he was accusing me of lying. Even if I did lie why would it be such a big issue to him after he lied so much? I deserved to be chastised because of some rumors he heard but I was supposed to simply forgive him for his indiscretion? Not only was he deceptive but he was loquacious. He told SaDonya all of our business. He’d go behind my back and talk to her about us. This woman was too involved in our relationship. She was involved with too many haters online who were known to spread hateful, false information about me.Let’s talk about my online haters in detail. I have plenty of course. It simply comes with the territory. We’ll just talk about the main ones who have caused problems in the lives of others while trying to hurt me. They kept missing the mark.Tommy Sotomayor, Minister Jap & Chris Law

I have several blog entries up on here about these stooges. I never seen men bitch so bad about women before in my life. These grown ass men behave like 3 gossip girls on a schoolyard. These men are all 3 men I rejected at some point and they still harbor some kind of pain about that. They depict to the world that I have somehow did something terrible to them. When really it isn’t about anything I’ve done to them. It’s the enjoyment they get out of degrading me. It gives them power that they don’t have in real life.Chris Law is the only one I actually had some type of interaction with. I was his side chick 10 years ago. Before he got married he and I would mess around with each other casually. We were friends who showed each other love. Yes, we’d grab dinner and play pool. We frequented bars and went to events together. He introduced me to the swinger’s lifestyle and took me to my first swingers party. It didn’t stop once he got married. It just slowed down. After his divorce from her he remarried and had another child. He showed up at my doorstep trying to restart our friendship even though he was remarried. He spoke about how he had been to counseling. He came to apologize for what he had done to me. I told him to leave the past in the past. However, he spent the next few years walking around Atlanta, Georgia with a bullhorn telling every MAN he could find that I was a hoe. It wasn’t until 2016 I got on my YouTube channel and warned women about the dangers of sleeping with married men. He caught wind and got upset. This is when he ran into Minister Jap. Both of them begin playing on my phone and doing all types of childish antics. Chris & Jap were texting me for 2 months pretending to be a woman who wanted to ask me questions about my experience with Chris. It wasn’t until Chris got frustrated because I wouldn’t speak specifics about my Order of the Eastern Star chapter. During one of those texts he admitted it was him and Jap pretending to be a woman.

Minister Jap was creating content on YouTube that was barely getting watched when I reached out and asked him to collab with me. We ended up doing one collaboration together. It can still be found on Facebook.

It was the first video we did that went viral. I was going to invest in this man’s career. I soon found out that it would not be wise to continue to interact with this man. He displayed a level of disdain for Black Single Mothers. It was unfortunate to me. Before this, he had expressed some type of romantic interest in me. It was mutual I was interested in him as well. But this disdain he had gave me pause. He made single mothers the butt of his jokes and it simply was not funny. It was insensitive and abusive. His statements were highly inappropriate and cruel. I reached out to him to tell him that I was uncomfortable with some of his material that he was posting on Facebook that was disrespectful towards women. He got belligerent and rude. He called me out my name. Once I ended the conversation I refused to answer any more of his phone calls. That’s when the stalking and harassing begin. He begin calling me 100 times a day. He’d leave disrespectful voicemails. He began threatening my life. He posted pictures of me nude he found from somewhere. He started calling me a tranny. He made fun of my sexuality and my gender. As well as my skin, hair and weight. He started reaching out to my ex partners, family members, co workers, business associates and anyone he could find that would say something negative about me. He even interviewed my ex Lloyd. Jap begin lying to people telling them I doxxed him and stalk him. He begin spreading vicious rumors about me online. Him and Chris linked up in my comment section of the very video I posted telling people to avoid being a mistress.

I found out Jap had admiration for Tommy Sotomayor from day one. Many years ago Tommy was reaching out to me on Facebook and his advances were being ignored. I was in a relationship so I couldn’t talk to other men. Tommy tried for a year to get my attention. It wasn’t until he asked me to do an interview on his YouTube channel that I responded to his messages. Once we set up a time and date I’m assuming he made an announcement on his channel. One of my fans reached out to me and told me that he was speaking negatively about me in his promotional video. So instead of jumping to conclusions I reached out to him about my concerns. He then proceeded to tell me that the negative things he said about me were the truth and that he could say what he wanted about me. I cancelled the interview with him and wished him the best. I tried to move on. He then created several more videos about me. After about the 4th or 5th video I responded. For years we begin to go back and forth on YouTube. He’d accused me of stalking him and he’d make up vicious lies and rumors. In 2013 his fanbase swarmed my comment section. He gave out my phone number on one of his videos. His fans harassed me over the phone for a week. I received thousands of hateful phone calls 24/7 by men who were harassing me about my gender and race. I received death threats and people encouraged me to commit suicide.

Once Tommy caught wind that Jap had some sort of issue with me he interviewed him for his channel. Then Chris followed also doing an interview with Tommy.After my pregnancy became public Jap reached out to me trying to convince me to break up with Priest. He called him “Dirty Dick Rodney”. When I refused, Jap reached out to Priest. Encouraging Priest to break up with me. After 2 or 3 years of bickering online about dumb shit, Priest ended up doing an interview with Tommy with SaDonya‘s dumb ass in tow. I’m sure it was Jap encouraging Priest to do it.What’s interesting about the people who chastise me the most they never take a look at themselves. Tommy Sotomayor is a deadbeat dad. He has several baby mommas. Yet he uses his platform to trash Black Women and single mothers. Like he doesn’t foster the negative relationships he has with the mothers of his children. My daughter’s father is not online complaining about our co-parenting experience at all. We have a very good comfortable loving friendship. He’d never participate in that foolishness. Priest has never met our son Justice so speaking to him about how he and I interact with each other probably wouldn’t be a good call. My son’s Godfather and I also have a very positive caring friendship and he is a really good Father to my son. But Tommy wasn’t trying to get the truth about my life he was trying to start drama. It’s a lot of men who are supportive of me and my son. Issues with men online do NOT effect my personal life. It was more men who gave me donations to help me move from Georgia to California.

 

Priest didn’t even graduate from high school. He doesn’t have a GED either. He is a blue collar worker who never attended college. He has low income if any at all. He doesn’t drive. Doesn’t have a car. Doesn’t have a home of his own. After 15 years of marriage to SaDonya he had nothing. No kids. No legacy. NOTHING. I tried to help him be a better man. We started Yahaura together. Which was the beginning of many other businesses we could’ve started together if he knew anything about loyalty and team work. Minister Jap is a drunk as well as a drug addict with a criminal record. He lives in the gutter of Chicago and only front’s like he has a life that other men should admire. However he’s just a loser with a failed rap career who harasses women to make himself feel better about his misfortune. I wanted to invest in his career that’s what made me reach out to him to begin with. I had enough money to spare and I wanted to spend it on elevating him. I wanted to help him be a better man. Out of frustration, jealousy and hatred he purposely ruined my relationship with Priest. Jap tries to make everyone believe he doesn’t continue to harass me because he doesn’t speak out about me publicly like he used to. But Jap continues to harass me behind the scenes.

Chris Law is a drunk as well. He’d drink so much he’d throw up. I don’t think I ever spent time with Chris when he wasn’t drinking. I know I’d have at least 1 drink while I was with him. Chris is on his 2nd or 3rd marriage so he was in no position to chastise me on the internet about my relationship with Priest. Chris was not man enough to openly say he made a mistake cheating on his wife. He just got online and pinned me as poisonous manipulative Jezebel with a porn star’s sex drive who made his life hell. When Chris was happy with me. All we did was laugh and have sex. No complications. I was genuinely Chris’ friend 10 YEARS AGO. I do NOT know him now but then I did not judge him and I never would have hurt him. Not ever. I listened to him tell me stories about how miserable he was in his marriage and how much he didn’t trust her. She was never around and I honestly believe that he was if anything a good friend to me. I respected the fact that he never lied to me about his relationship and he didn’t lie to me about his marriage. I was going through so much hurt and pain in my own life that being with him helped me through. Yes he turned on me. He betrayed me later on. He even he posted intimate pictures of us at a swingers party and lied telling people we made a sex tape. Even to this day I still hold no hatred in my heart for him even though he helped ruin my relationship and my family with Priest.

Tommy is a deadbeat dad with a criminal record who has admitted to being as such as well as admitted to being sexually attracted to underage girl. He has also has participated in molestation. He talks about how much he hates the Black Race especially Black Women but this is what the community calls a reliable source about all things Soncerae?

LaVonya “Bomb Cherry” Edwards & Sean “STL4U” TuckerBomb Cherry is one jealous broad. She is a complete stranger yet she is so invested in my life like we had some type of solid life experience with each other. We have never met and I have never done anything to this woman. However, Jap fueled her. If you haven’t noticed a pattern let me reassure you that Jap is the catalyst for a lot of drama I have experienced on YouTube. Any type of issue I’ve had all fingers point back at Jap. The only reason why Jap even interacts with Bomb Cherry is because she is willing to speak as negatively about me online as he does. If she didn’t he’d be calling her a hoe just like he continues to calls me that.Bomb Cherry used to come inside of my comment section and we’d talk. After a few months she became overbearing and ended up getting into an argument with someone inside of my comment section. This was the second time she had caused a problem. At first she got into it with ME on my own channel. That was the first red flag. After she got into it with someone else I simply blocked her and proceeded to move on with my life. Instead of her moving on she took to her YouTube channel and has been stalking and harassing me online ever since. It’s been 3 years.

Everyone can tell how much Bomb Cherry wishes she was me. I get emails from people telling me not to worry about her because she’s jealous. I’ve never seen a person talk so much and so bad about someone they hate like she does me. She is obsessed. She has lied and said I sent someone to her house to sexually assault her. She has made almost 100 videos about my vagina. She has interviewed SaDonya on her channel more than once. I don’t even know how SaDonya could even allow herself to be around this slut. Bomb Cherry is a webcam porn hoe who also makes money doing phone sex. She claims she is a married woman. The truth is her marriage is open and loveless. This crazy geriatric troll has not only reached out to Priest and SaDonya she has called my mom, swatted my mom’s house, tried to reach out to my oldest daughter. From fake email addresses and phone numbers she reached out to my cousin Shunna and my Aunt Julia who are only related to me through Priest. (Read this blog) I’m sure Priest or SaDonya handed over their information because I had never spoke in detail about either of them for anyone to know their last names or what they look like.

In Bomb Cherry’s many years of harassing me online she birthed another troll named STL4U who also harasses me as well. Only because Bomb Cherry told him to. Not because I did anything to him personally. He’s going around claiming I posted his private information. Like I initiated some type of issue with him. He forgot to mention how he continue to harass me and this compelled me to post his information on my blog so the authorities can keep up with him. He repeats anything Bomb Cherry says. She has him out in these “YouTube Streets” looking super stupid doing her bidding.I received an email the other day it said:Hello Soncerae my name is mike from canada. Not sure if you are aware that one of your youtube trolls stlfu has a criminal record
one of the felonies he has is for child abuse. check out the
attachments. I find it odd that he is discussing children, when he has a felony for child abuse.

So let’s reflect….Bomb Cherry is a webcam porn hoe who does phone sex operations and has also committed welfare fraud. She has a criminal record. SaDonya also has one. Now here is Sean Tucker who has both felonies and misdemeanors but somehow these people are trying to convince the world that SONCERAE is a huge problem?Now everyone for the most part knows my moderators names are Mr Live & Mark. Sometimes people harass them just because we get along. Mr Live contacted me the other day and to my surprise he asked me who LaVonya Edwards was. At first it caught me off guard. I was surprised he didn’t know who she was. But he was so used to me calling her Bomb Cherry he had no idea that LaVonya Edwards was her real name.

He goes into this long story about how Bomb Cherry some how found him on Facebook and begin trying to get them to connect romantically. This is supposedly a married woman. Yet she was out here sending nudes to my moderator. She was trying to encourage him to hang out with her. She even knew that he worked at Bank of America previously and claimed that she saw him there. This is stalking. She not only stalked me so hard that she found out the personal information of my moderators. She then begin to stalk my moderator. This chick is demented on so many levels.So Sean STL4U Tucker makes these crazy 3-8 hour livestreams about me that proves he is unemployed. No one with a work schedule has time to do all of that. Maybe listen to a livestream, yes! But do one NO! He did one recently called “WHO SWATTED SONCERAE” If you don’t know what swatting means. It means that some internet weirdo with no life or morals sends police to raid an innocent person’s house simply because they don’t like that person. I did a podcast recently talking about someone sent police, pest control, plumming, chinese food delivery guys and pizza delivery guys to my mom’s house thinking I lived there. I’m not as open as I used to be about my living situation but I have clearly said on more than one occasion that my mom and I DO NOT LIVE TOGETHER and that I changed my LEGAL NAME. So finding me is difficult. Sean tried to act like he didn’t know who was swatting my house. Bomb Cherry already called my mom’s phone and left a belligerent voicemail saying it was her who did it. I know Sean knows that. He’s her lap dog. Of course he knows it was her. It is also her who contacted Aunt Julia and Shunna as well as my daughter’s father trying to cause drama. It didn’t work. We still cool over here. My family loves me and they have my back. Just because you got Priest & SaDonya, the gruesome twosome, dumb and dumber to turn on me doesn’t mean you’ll be able to pull that bullshit on anyone else. Who else would participate in such adolescent behaviors?

  1. I would never interview anyone’s family members for my YouTube channel. (I interviewed Tommy’s Ex Avi AFTER he interviewed Chris Law and Jap for his channel.)
  2. I will never post anyone’s private information simply because I do not like them. If I’ve ever posted anyone’s private information it is on this blog and because they have been harassing me.
  3. I do not reach out to anyone’s family members offline.
  4. I would not try to pin people’s family members and friends against them by telling them lies and gossip.
  5. I have never sent anyone any threatening or blackmail emails. If anything I’ll openly say what my intentions for you are on my blog, youtube channel or podcast. Or I will simply contact you directly.
  6. I have never swatted or sent anyone to someone’s house simply because I don’t like them.
  7. I have never played on anyone’s phone pretending to be someone else.
  8. I have never trolled anyone’s social media profiles from a fake profile.

YET THESE ARE ALL THINGS THESE PEOPLE HAVE DONE TO ME. BUT SOMEHOW THEY DEPICT THEMSELVES AS MY VICTIM!?!?

Rudemp has literally stomped Sean. He has verbally stripped Sean’s manhood away. The truth is Sean is powerless in real life that’s why he allows a porn hoe to run him. She tells him what to do. Just like Jap tells Chris and Priest what to do. Bomb Cherry tells Sean & SaDonya what to do. These people are puppets. Rude is another YouTube Streets content creator who can hand someone their ass if need me. Rude treated Sean like the roadkill he is but Sean has not obsessively harassed him how he has done me. It proves that when a man addresses him he can’t handle it but he can definitely abuse and belittle a woman. Men who aren’t accepted on the playing field with other men end up being mentally manipulated by older women and abuse other women. I don’t even bother responding to Sean. He just makes videos and I ignore them. He is trivial. It’s not worth the little bit of attention I’m giving it right now.I’m bringing this to everyone’s attention so people can understand something. In no way have I harmed ANY of these people in real life. I never depict myself as a perfect person. I’ve simply fought back against them for humiliating me or harassing me. One thing these people don’t do is self evaluate. They don’t see what they did. Or they do see but they can’t handle that it’s genuinely their fault why things have gone the way they have with me. They truly do not see their part in contributing to or primarily causing their own problems in life. This is an unconscious barrier, so you shouldn’t try to “make them see” their part in the problem. That just increases their defensiveness and makes things worse. Keep in mind that emotions are contagious, and high-conflict emotions are highly contagious. So when you see people online acting overly emotional and sensitive when they are talking about me, I’m only being used as a tool. It’s not really me that’s the problem. They don’t know me personally. Everyone has flaws and things they need to get over. Nobody goes through life without making mistakes or doing something they’re ashamed of. That’s why people who criticize others have no basis for their arguments. When the criticism becomes constant and vicious, that person is probably not making a healthy assessment of your mistakes. It’s probably more like the defense mechanism known as “projection.” They see you as a mirror; they criticize the things in you that they don’t like about themselves. As far as men who harass women online like how Tommy, Jap, Chris and Sean have done to me I just view it as they have no power in real life when dealing with women. Women dominate them or women reject them. They can’t have their way with women. Cybersexism and Cybermisogny is a real thing. As men often rely on aggression to maintain their dominant social status the increase in hostility towards a woman by lower-status males is an attempt to disregard a female’s performance and suppress her disturbance on the hierarchy. These men are sad that I am doing better than they are. I am a woman of power. I control my life and my situations. I create my success. I own my flaws and I accept my past. I am true to who I am. Some people find that hard to do. I am just not that person. None of these people are perfect. They all have a checkered past. However, they make it seem like my past is worse than theirs. We all have things we did that we aren’t proud of.

Usually when someone doesn’t like a person they just leave them alone. Not harass them. I’m surprised I had to defend myself against strangers and at one point I was extremely kind to them. My heart goes out to these people and I have a level of patience with them that I never used to have. Even without me responding these people will continue to harass me. They actually believe they have a right to when they do not. I try to have compassion. As annoying as they have been and no matter how much I want them to leave me and my family alone, they think harassing me is funny and entertaining. I simply send them positive vibes and move on. They try to hide their grief, their pain and misfortune. If getting online brings them some type of relief I try to understand that. I’ve even tried to apply some of the advice they have tried to give me to my life. That may not be smart considering the sources. But remember we can learn lessons from all types of people who are in all walks of life. Respect each others journey. Take care of one another.

LaVonya Edwards Is At It Again

I’ve always talked about how supportive some of my son’s family members are. My son’s father isn’t the best father in the world but he has some family members that are very positive and drama-free. I’ve mentioned these two women Aunt Julia and cousin Shunna a couple of times on my YouTube channel. Shunna asked to be on my channel with me a few times and I told her no. I didn’t want her harmed. Then one day we decided to do a live stream to smooth things out between me SaDonya and Priest. We wanted to do something positive. Talk about sisterhood and love. But hours before we could even do that SaDonya participated in a hateful live stream with geriatric troll LaVonya Edwards AKA Bomb Cherry. This was SaDonya’s 3rd time on Youtube discussing me, months before her 4th. SaDonya, claiming she wants to stay out of internet drama and clear her name, was allowing herself to be interviewed by people who have an obvious disdain for me. If you want peace with someone or to stay dramafree the last thing you’d do is interact with said person’s enemies. She wants the world to believe she is being bullied by me but keeps provoking me. She chose these people to interact with purposely. It is NOT coincidence. It disappointed Shunna and I so we decided to no longer do the live stream. But of course Shunna and I still have a positive relationship and Aunt Julia still supported my son. Even gifted my son for his birthday. I will always have a level of respect for these two women because they care for my son.

One of the reasons why I adore Shunna is because she is such a good mother. Not only has she survived brain surgery she has endured a great deal of pain as of recently. She lost someone she loved so deeply and still managed to stay strong through it. I have so much love for her and it won’t fade with time. She is my cousin who feels like my sister. She welcomed me with open arms and no judgments. Her sense of humor is the best part about her. I laugh out loud every time we talk. I also talk to her children. They are all always so kind to me.

Aunt Julia encouraged me to be kind and compassionate. She suggested I be mature and patient with Priest and SaDonya. She has never disrespected me and is a really good listener. She was the first person from Priest’s family to acknowledge my son without needing a DNA test. She knew when she saw Justice that he was Priest’s son. She was generous and showed genuine care for my son. She was the first family member of Priest’s to openly gift my son.

It saddens me to say that unfortunately my adoration for them has been used as a tool to cause more drama. People trying to use my own family against me says a lot about the climate of this country. There are people out there who have nothing to lose. They have no family. No respect for boundaries and know nothing about long lasting love.

Today Lavonya Edwards took to her Youtube channel and maliciously posted pictures of Julia with her husband along with pictures of Shunna. Accusing ME of exposing them. How does that makes sense in this demented troll’s mind? She’s posting their pictures, first and last names but its ME exposing them? How? People like this continue to cause harm to me then tell the world I started something with the. The title of the video reflects her obsession with my vagina.

That’s so sad. Priest and SaDonya trusted LaVonya Edwards on numerous occasions. When I advised them both not to. Yet they did it anyway and now Priest’s innocent family members are being exposed. Not because of anything I did. Two people who never said anything negative about anyone are being misused and exploited just so an insecure elderly whore can receive social acceptance online. I’ve mentioned Priest’s family members including his sister who was mean to me. His mom who I loved until I found out she deceived me. As well as Priest’s brother and Grandmother who were both kind to me. However, I would never post pictures of ANY them or reveal their first and last names. It’s unnecessary.

The question is how did LaVonya Edwards get images or info about either of these women without me releasing any of their personal information? She didn’t get it from me. I can barely stand the broad. I’d never give that bimbo information about anyone. The only way she could’ve got this information was from Priest or SaDonya.

LaVonya Edwads is one nasty webcam porn phone sex hoe who has been stalking me for too long. I have way to many blog entries discussing how she harasses me online. I’m sorry but frankly bitches over 45 are supposed be baking cookies, enjoying Grandkids and loving life. Not trolling on the internet. LaVonya continues to try to escape from her loveless open marriage by using me as a person to severely criticize and degrade.

This is the foolishness I have to deal with on a regular from complete strangers who will do anything for attention. Then guess who wass in the livestream spreading lies….Minister Jap….. Why am I not surprised. The butthurt loudmouth is most likely the ring leader behind why my son’s father ended up doing an interview with Tommy Sotomayor. Priest is so dumb. Not even realized he is being used by the very man who encouraged me to break up with him. The very man who wished he could take his place.

Yes….that clown….still trying to push the false narrative that my daughter is pregnant. She is NOT pregnant. She is a virgin.

During the stream while a picture of Aunt Julia and her husband is malisciously posted Minister Jap says when my daughter first came to Cali she visited Planned Parenthood. What a moron. She never visited one. She knows about them because teens are taught they exist from their Health teacher in High School. Also they are in affluent neighborhoods here in California. We see them here all of the time. My daughter has never been pregnant. My daughter has never had sex.

On top of that someone from a blocked number called my daughter’s father yesterday claiming my daughter is in danger and it’s because I’ve doxxed people. Doxxed is a famous term trolls use on YouTube. I’ve heard that bullshit term used nowhere else. My daughter’s father had no idea what it meant. This FEMALE troll told him I post people’s addresses and SSN. The only person who keeps accusing me of that is this woman. All that digging LaVonya Edwards did to find Shunna and Julia. I’m sure she put that same energy into finding my daughter’s father. But if someone was to do any of this to her she’d be crying victim. The second someone shows her this same disgust in return she’ll be somewhere crying her eyes out.

My daughter’s father moved out of Atlanta and retired from IT & Telecom. Leave him alone. He out in the world finding peace. He is doing the kind of field work he really enjoys. He deserves it. He’s been sitting behind a computer for decades. Now he helps me with my clothing line Yahaura.

This is so sad to me. It gets worse. Inside of this livestream she is spreading another ridiculous rumor that was started by another content creator.

I would never harm my children. I was never beat up during my pregnancy nor did I inflict pain on myself during that time. If I truly didn’t want my son so badly that I wanted him no longer alive I would’ve simply got an abortion not punch myself in the stomach. When are y’all gonna stop with this stupidity? Never? Ok I’ll do you one better and detach myself from the bullshit.

I will continue to post any nonsense that includes stalking or harassment of any kind that I am aware of so that authorities can keep up with this stuff.

Check out my latest livestream about this issue.

https://www.spreaker.com/episode/19051724

Black Women Need To Quit Being Weak | The Derivative of a Pick Me

Sometimes I am not surprised at how bad Black Men treat Black Women. Especially when I see how most Black Women aren’t supportive of each other. I’m seeing too many women say too many ridiculous things online. Especially the PICK MEs. A PICKME’s only motivation for shaming other women is getting acceptance from men. If that requires them to throw other women under the bus, they don’t seem to have a problem doing that. And in this time when women need to stick together more than ever, ain’t nobody got time for that. These type of women don’t even bother holding men accountable for anything. This brings me to one goofy broad who ignored me deleting her unnecessary comments the first time and decided to comment two more times after expecting to be seen and ultimately got disappointed. I can always tell when I’m dealing with one of those chicks that posts anything on social media to get social acceptance. It’s nothing worse than a PICKME who didn’t catch the drift the first time.

My deadbeat baby daddy, Priest, wearing a mask of sanity, decided he wanted to join the flood of socially awkward men on YouTube. This non-inclusive group of weirdos who use that platform to bitch and complain about Black Women they were too unsuccessful and mentally challenged to keep up with. When I was dating Priest he depicted himself as PRO-BLACK. It wasn’t until later on that I realized he was a HOTEP promoting psuedo-consciousness. Walking around with a head full of dreads and an ANKH but shallow as a puddle underneath. For him to use the platform of Tommy Sotomayor who has stated plenty of times how much he hates NIGGAS/Black People especially Black Women shouldn’t have been a surprise to me. Priest will camouflage into a tree lizard looking for a branch to sit on if it stops him from having to take responsibility for his actions and depicts someone else as the problem for his misfortune. He blended in quite well with that bullshit sector of underachieving men. I posted a picture of my son and I together who are doing perfectly fine without him.

After victimizing himself on Tommy Sotomayor’s platform pinning me as the villian WITHOUT even mentioning the fact that he’s an absentee father by choice and abandoned a pregnant severely ill woman in a roach motel (AVOIDING THE big ass elephant in the room) I wanted everyone to be sure that I was unbothered by his attempts to gain favor with a bunch of strangers who troll the internet. Those actions weren’t getting him any closer to being the man he needs to be for our son. It only proved he has ill intentions for both me and my son.

In the caption on my community tab I posted:

#SingleMomLife Let me reassure everyone …my son and I are happy, healthy and live a life filled with privilege and camaraderie. When I was pregnant I was on YouTube asking for donations to help me move to California. I spent my first year here struggling. But I wanted a better life for my son that being in Atlanta couldn’t provide. If you sent me a donation rest assured that I did everything I said I was going to do with it. I live the life I said I would. I wanted a new better paying career. I have that. I wanted us both to be surrounded by different cultures and successful men and women. We are. My son is fortunate to have positive male role models. He also has a life that his biological father would have never been able to provide and still can’t. He doesn’t have the mental capacity to do so. One thing that I know brings Priest great sorrow is that our son and I are happiest without him. He thought I’d struggle forever or continue to beg him to be in our lives. Doing this on my own required me to have to make extreme changes and let a lot of things and people go. Both internally and externally I evolved. I’m glad I did. Ladies sometimes you are going to have to let go of the men you love deeply because their chapter in your life is over. Sometimes even if they ended the chapter themselves they will kick and scream dying on the inside because they never believed you’d let them go. If I had to do it over and choose between staying with Priest and watch him juggle me and other women or experiencing the trauma of his abandonment while being Justice’s mom, I’d chose Justice over Priest and go through that heartbreak all over again. 💙 My son is worth every tear I shed. Priest will continue to fall short of what it means to be a good father, good friend, good husband or partner. He has yet to understand what it means to truly be a man. There was no man in his life to teach him and the men that were there weren’t the best role models. I will not subject my son to that. I know that the universe will continue to bring men in my son’s life that will help him be a better man than his father will ever be. Priest is behind on child support. Child support he asked to be on. I was only rewarded $264 a month. His pay is now garnished. No I am not on welfare, Section 8 or public assistance. I work hard for every cent. If you want to donate to us. You can. All of it goes directly to my son. $LittleJustice is his CashApp. I appreciate everyone who has supported us and everyone who still invests their time and energy into us. We live a good life because of your positivity. His father’s negative words and actions do not effect us at all. We are happy and grateful. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. May the universe continue to bless you all. I wish nothing but the best for everyone. 💙

Then in came the goofy broad with this fuckery:

Broads like these be the first ones on DATE #1 ready to hop on the dick of a man who puts it together nice and picks up the check. You a special melanin star but quick to put down the most disrespected unprotected human being on the planet, YOURSELF. Another African American woman who has the same tone and gender as you. These problacks online are so befuddled. I’m not the sharpest knife in the drawer but what I picked up on was that this dragon lady was on to something.

So instead of trying to explain to someone with a weak constitution where I was coming from I just deleted the content and moved on. I’m not interested in confrontation of any kind. It wasn’t until she made several more comments that didn’t make any sense that brought to my attention that this woman was either a man hiding behind a fake profile or this bitch really thought she had a penis. Have you noticed how men team together no matter how much dirt they do? Women don’t do that. Women defend men and make excuses for them. Black Women are primary enablers of Black Men. Women like this will disguise themselves and pretend like they are type that’s not tripping off of a man when really everything she says and does is to get the adoration of a man. Especially if she doesn’t have sense publicly show a level of loyalty to Black Sisterhood.

Now I’m not foreign to the concept of Black Sisterhood. I have plenty of healthy friendships with women of color. When I was pregnant with my son plenty of women came out of the woodwork supporting me as a single mother. I received plenty of emails and comments from women understanding exactly what I was experiencing. It is so many of us experiencing the same things with men that it is easy to find women alike.

How this woman’s take away from this comment turned into something about PENIS is beyond me. Nothing in my post said anything about me being addicted to PENIS of any kind. I’ve been known to be a cock tease. Even though a shitload of men I’ve never had sex with talk about me like I’m the whore of Babylon. Men who have dealt with me first hand know how much of a prune I am. Especially when I haven’t consumed an ounce of alcohol. I need to be pissy drunk to engage in sex. I’m sure this woman has been following my story for a long time because this wasn’t the first time I saw her goofy ass comment in my comment section. So she is pretty much aware that Priest and I did not have a relationship based on sex. Sex was a big issue in our relationship. It wasn’t good. It was a problem and that’s the main reason why he no longer wanted to be in a relationship. I wasn’t open to sex enough. Nor was I turned on. He had erectile dysfunction and premature ejaculation. It was difficult for us to have sex. We were better at all other things in a relationship that are important. NOT SEX, sweetheart. He has admitted himself that our sex was NOT the best. We barely had it. I’m surprised we have a child together.

Then she spoke about the mental maturity of a man and how women just have babies with these type of men. Newsflash bimbo, no woman is walking around looking for the nearest village idiot to have a baby by. I can’t stand when women try to act like narcissists are walking around with huge neon signs on their forehead that say “I want to fuck you over, be dumb, lie, make all of these promises, be the man you want me to be for however long and then turn into a complete asshole once I impregnate you. I’m no good for you.”

After I was left sick in a hotel broke by a man who just drained me financially, emotionally and spiritually, a man who later explained that he never genuinely had feelings for me and was just using me, she leaves this comment. And We’ve already established that he wasn’t using me for sex so it’s obvious it for money. Somehow, this twat waffle suggested that women need to stop looking for handouts. Most people don’t think shit through before they comment online so IDK why I allowed this comment and the several others that followed to annoy me so much.

Now let me explain why I think this scally wag was on to something.

I definitely agree that women should stop being so starry eyed when they experience good penis. Posting that comment would have made sense on an entirely different post or video. It’s funny how people put IJS behind dumb shit like it made the comment before it look more logical. No bitch the comment was still stupid and hateful. It wasn’t until I read the subsequent comments after that I realized she was a PICK ME. I was like ohhhhhh she’s posting this so she can look good for the men online who dog me out for being a single mom. Ohhhhh this comment is for THEM not ME! I get it! She was insulting the absolute fuck out of me. And all of her comments were demeaning and aimed to poke fun at my strength and independence as a woman. Why are their so many people trolling like that online? What is wrong with you weirdos? I’ve known women who have criticized other black women to the point of completely humiliating them. How sad that a race of people that have progressed so far still have so far to go in terms of relationships with one another.

For years on my YouTube channel I spoke about how derogatory and disrespectful African American people are to each other. I’ve spoke about how entertainment and media set the tone for how a lot of people deal with each other in real life. I’ve specifically said for my audience to not drink the poison of negativity. Everything that you consume daily will manifest into your life, whether it’s music, books or a show on Netflix. You have to be careful. Media is powerful. Imagine how many vicious rumors that were spread about me that were obviously lies, all because people found it entertaining. You don’t even realize how these rumors have brought people into my real life who have looked at me believing I’ve done things I’ve never done. Most people can’t even decipher the difference between YouTube and reality.

Think of all of the shows that promote and in essence, condone bad attitudes and bad behavior among African American women. Imagine what kind of thoughts young black boys and young black girls have. The danger is the boys thinking African American women are something to be feared or either completely avoided at all costs.

Think about all of the negative videos about African American women online that are all propaganda? That material has destroyed real relationships. I’ve seen it happen. My own son’s father has allowed these men on YouTube to encourage him to make poor choices in life. It has created more damage. If you are a man and are surrounded by men who disrespect women, you will begin to disrespect women, Perception is reality. One person’s perception of an individual can rub off on those who are looking for social acceptance.

I just want to tell this goofy broad listen honey:

Love yourself so that you will never compare your life to another’s life. Once you fully accept yourself you will be able to accept others and not be so judgmental when interacting with them.

Love your sisters so that when someone reads your comments they will learn from you and want to emulate that positivity. A younger generation is watching you whether you believe it or not. You don’t want some young girl picking on some other young girl for callous reasons. These are the reasons situations start to escalate at Middle Schools and High Schools. Places where our children are supposed to be safe little girls are getting jumped by other girls over boys. It’s because they get these behaviors from adults. These young girls are killing each other just to get adoration from boys. It just happened to Janise Harris. Girls posted video on social media of them jumping her over a boy. This is causing a bigger problem then most Black Women are acknowledging. They can see us on social media destroying each other with these virtual attacks.

Stop judging each other. Respect each other’s journey. The way we as women treat each other is vitally important to all those who are watching us including our children, other women who look up to us, those we lead in our workplaces, those in organizations we belong to and strangers we meet on the street. If we smile it will promote a spirit of love and acceptance. If we frown and look each other up and down, we are sending the message that says, “I already don’t like you,” which definitely causes the receiver of these looks to instantly jump on the defensive end.

Be better friends! Display loyalty! Stop talking behind each other’s backs and being ugly towards each other. Take better care of each other. Listen, love, be compassionate. Don’t ignore each other’s feelings. Don’t tell each other’s secrets. Be yourself. Be giving. Be understanding, flexible and available. Be fun positive and accepting. Be dependable, respectful and appreciative of the friendship. Be considerate and supportive. HAVE PATIENCE WITH EACH OTHER! We already have enough of society coming down on us. No need to be that way towards each other.

Encourage men to take better care of us. Stop putting up with bullshit. Stop sharing men and understand that a lot of times these men are trying to pin you against other women. When you see another woman who may have went through something bad with a Black Man stop automatically assuming it was her that was the problem. When you don’t hold these men accountable they think it’s ok to treat us poorly. Instead of telling women what they should’ve could’ve would’ve did what they should be doing. Instead spead with men. Tell them not to behave in manners that are disrespectful towards women. Tell men…. always treat your women with respect. Encourage your wife, sisters, female friends, and other African American women to treat each other with respect. Don’t allow them to treat each other bad with you as an audience or a supporter of such behavior.

Thank you SPECIAL MELANIN STAR for giving me inspiration to write a blog that encourages women to start treating each other better. I apologize for all of the names I called you girl! I dedicate this blog to you! 🙂 Girl you may not be a traditional pick me however you are a derivative of one. Do better mama!

Here’s Why Your Ex Is As Dreadful As Mine & Keeps Spreading Lies About You

My son’s father, Priest is asinine. Granted I’ve known this for a while but it’s still taking the rest of the world to catch on. I don’t blame them though. He lies so well sometimes. Just recently he took his prevaricating ass on to YouTube and did an interview with Tommy Sotomayor. During the interview he was trying to depict himself as this devoted married man who was victimized by me the clever succubus mistress. The verbal abuse was real in our relationship. The same verbal abuse was displayed during his interview. That forked tongue of his is wicked. If his rudimentary tone didn’t make you catch on to the fact that he was obviously fabricating a story for entertainment purposes here are a few other obvious reasons that prove he is a deceiver. I don’t lie about him. Never have. STOP focusing so much on what Priest says and pay attention to his behavior. His disgusting actions will not mislead you. He is a problem.

#1 He admitted to the world that he lied to me about being married as well as a number of other things. Then in the same breath told everyone that he was this devoted committed husband who was deceived by me. So if he admitted that he lied to me then how would that make him the victim and ME the falsifier of information? He’s not so bright and anyone who believes the pack of lies he spreads isn’t either. He just told EVERYONE that HE fabricated. So you believe him after he just told you he lied? When evidently he’s lying to you again simply by using diversion attempting to shift his inability to be honest on me. He is a problem.

#2 SaDonya his EX wife, said they were separated and I was not his sidechick. Interestingly enough this was the first thing she said upon coming on YouTube. Those who paid enough attention to her comments under my videos saw her say it. They also saw the texts I posted in this blog I posted called CUT THE BULLSHIT of her telling me that she was dating someone else when he and I met. Here’s the link to it.

https://misssonceraevideos.wordpress.com/2017/12/26/facts-myths-about-priest-raes-relationship/

She did try to recant her story later on. Which caused more friction between her and I. Either way she did end up filing for divorce and they are officially divorced now. He was her problem.

#3 If he was such a devoted faithful committed husband how did he end up sleeping in a hotel or truck being homeless with me? Think this through. Justice would not be alive and 16 months old if Priest was the amazing husband he’s trying to depict himself to be. If SaDonya was such a good wife why was she the side chick to another man when Priest and I started dating? Yes she admitted it to me that she was dating another man when Priest and I met and that she was this man’s side chick. Proof of that is also in this blog entry linked below.

https://misssonceraevideos.wordpress.com/2017/12/26/facts-myths-about-priest-raes-relationship/

I saw someone post in my comment section the other day ALL THE WAY MISINFORMED “Why do you talk so bad about Priest’s family when they put a roof over your head.” There are so many things wrong with this statement but let’s start with the first one. Priest’s family did not put a roof over my head. If they did we wouldn’t have been in hotels or sleeping in his explorer. Priest was living with his grandmother until she moved out of state. Her and I were fine. I never had an issue with her. I never lived with him and his Grandmother. Priest’s mother was also homeless. She had just moved back there. She wanted Priest and I to come live with her and her new husband once they bought a new house. If Priest was a devoted faithful committed husband to SaDonya why was his family even allowing me to be around? Why was his family encouraging he and I to move with them?

Next, it wasn’t Priest’s entire family that was a problem. His sister was a bitch and had an attitude problem. This, his family confirmed to me and told me to ignore. Priest initially spoke bad to me about his family. He demonized them and SaDonya before I even met them. The only reason why he currently speaks positively about SaDonya is because it aids in vilifying me. He depicts me as opposite of who I truly am, purposely. Just how he did her. He convinced me that she was sneaky conniving and controlling, as well as promiscuous. He told me that she cheated on him. He spoke of her previously like she was the devil incarnate. His mom was cool to me and she was the one that helped convince me that Priest and SaDonya were no longer together. Initially, she didn’t like SaDonya. His family was confused as to why he even married her. Priest was her second husband. She had children from a previous marriage. She is damn near 10 years his senior. They DO NOT have children together. She was a single mom when he met her. So if Priest was a devoted committed married man why was his mother telling me that she could tell I loved her son and that I will never have to worry about SaDonya because their marriage was over? Why was she telling me that SaDonya was bad for him and that he didn’t want her anymore?

#4 Why did I even meet his family to begin with? How do I know any of them? No married man alive would introduce a side chick to his entire family KNOWING that they’d tell his wife. When I met his family most of them hadn’t seen Priest in YEARS. Priest led me to believe that SaDonya ostracized him from his family. I was encouraging him to spend more time with them. Big mistake. He is a problem.

#5 We have a son together. No married devoted committed husband would have even put himself in a position to get any woman pregnant. He wouldn’t have even been on the dating site we met on to begin with.

Critical thinking skills need to come into play with this situation. Use your head. Are you really this gullible? Priest led me to believe that he & SaDonya signed their divorce papers June 30th 2017, a month after we decided to fully commit to each other. By this time he had been separated for 2 years. They were already planning a divorce before he and I even met. Because, he is a problem.

Here’s why he is taking the time to lie to the world about our situation. Some ladies will be able to relate to this.

#1 He doesn’t want anyone to think he is a bad person. He’ll say anything to get social acceptance. The asshole is attempting to preserve his image.

#2 He wanted to break up with me and that’s fine in itself. He went the extra mile to orchestrate an exit, unnecessarily. Sometimes people don’t want to be in certain relationships anymore. That’s a part of life. But he continues to orchestrate drama demonizing me in the process so it can make him feel better about abandoning me during my pregnancy. I didn’t give this man a reason to want to leave. He just wanted to leave. He just wanted to be single and not have any responsibility. He feels bad about wanting that when he shouldn’t. There are plenty of other things he should feel bad about in regards to me but that’s not one of them. The more he can convince everyone that I am a bad person the more these people will begin to feel sympathy for him and justify why he made such a poor choice. He is using others to make himself feel better. He knows that his reasons for leaving the relationship were not legitimate.

#3 He wants to avoid responsibility. During his interview with Tommy Sotomayor the main issue he avoided discussing was his inability to parent our child. He has never met our son. Why wasn’t the topic of him fathering prominent in conversation. The only goal was to vilify me. He didn’t want to take accountability. It’s too hard to self evaluate and make change. It’s easier to blame someone else.

#4 He wanted to save face. I was too much for him. The concept of marriage and kids was something we spoke about often. Ultimately something he was not ready for. Instead of feeling remorse for misleading me. He wants to look like he’s winning inside of this situation. When the truth of the matter is the lesson needs to be learned that playing a woman for her money, lying to her about wanting to be married and have children can actually have you stuck with a wife and child you didn’t even want to begin with.

#5 He knows some morons won’t question is claims. Especially if he can manipulate and charm them. I’ve said before that his narcissistic ass is Lucifer. He may have the IQ of a nectarine but he can definitely use charm to get what he wants.

#6 He’s immature, unkind and malicious. It’s as simple as that. No further explanation needed.

If people believe any of the foolishness that comes out of this man’s mouth there is nothing I can do about that. I can’t control what people say or think. Even when I try to defend myself and tell the truth people will think I’m desperate to convince them or covert them into believing something untruthful.

When something like this happens..,you might be tempted to engage in some reputation management if you have mutual friends or if they’ve gone so far as to say things to your family or coworkers (beyond unacceptable) but you will potentially end up fighting to preserve your image of you with people who won’t matter to your world in a matter of months never mind years plus you will end up fighting to correct an image of a relationship that’s over. You will be trying to control the uncontrollable. The main image that you need to correct is of your ex. It doesn’t change that you enjoyed good times together but they have unfolded in a way that shows traits that don’t make them the loyal, loving, caring, respectful, trustworthy person that you deserve to be with. They’re showing you that it’s the right thing that you’ve broken up. -Natalie

His actions are confirmation that I never should have dated him to begin with. That’s all I know. I don’t care about semantics. The best rebuttal in this situation is to live my life well like I’ve been doing. Instead of devoting my life to defending and convincing this person or whoever he associates with that I’m a good person. I cannot force feed my ex or his ‘audience’ of dipshits the true version of events. Karma will catch up with Priest and manifest in his life one way or another and that’s what he needs to prepare himself for.

Priest should feel a sense of remorse and want to do whatever he can to gain my forgiveness. He could start by apologizing over and over and over and then aligning his behaviors to prove that he is genuinely sorry. He hasn’t done that. What he continues to do is maliciously associate himself with people who start drama, lie and are so vitriol and vocal about their hatred towards me. Why would he want to even be around people who would consider doing that? This is why I don’t like him. He’d have to want me to forgive him for me to want him to be around. He needs to think long and hard about what he did to get us here. He needs to also understand why he did this to me. Next would be to empathize with me. It’s ok to make a mistake. Mistakes don’t make you a bad person. But once you repeat negative behavior it becomes a habit and conscious choice not a mistake. If he simply explained himself without making excuses we could have a better co parenting relationship for our son. All he has to do is make things right by showing he’s changed and compensate for his mistakes by doing something good. Him talking bad about me doesn’t bother me. I want him to hate me. His hate for me is equivalent to how much I used loved him. All I care about is my son having a healthy loving family surrounding him. IF Priest is unwilling to do what he needs to do in order to become the man and father my son needs I preferred that he continues to interact with those group of people who encouraged him to be hateful towards me and my son. Ladies if you are ever in this situation with a man please do not waste your energy trying to convince this man or any other person how good of a woman you are. Just be a good woman and the right man will show his face at the right time. Exes are exes for a reason keep them in the past where they belong.

$264 A Month in Child Support Still Makes You A Deadbeat Dad

I’ve always believed that putting a man on child support was a waste of time. I’ve made videos on my YouTube channel plenty of times discussing child support. I’ve talked about how I didn’t want to put my son’s father on child support. I’ve talked about how my son’s father asked to be on child support and then when he lost his job he called me and asked me to take him off it. Earlier this year he went a couple of months without paying it. Then I was told by the child support services office that his pay was garnished and that I’d be receiving payments soon.

Check out my latest podcast about this. https://www.spreaker.com/episode/18994958

Now I’m assuming there must be a level of confusion amongst people online who for some reason have been commenting in my comment section about Priest and his child support payments. I never wanted child support and I still don’t. I do understand that child support is for my son not me. So I put my child support payments in a trust fund for my son.

I was awarded $264 a month in child support. Which is chump change in the state of California. The reason that that child support payment is as low as it is is because I make a substantial amount of money higher than my son’s father makes. I am responsible for 67% of the expenses in regards to my son. I am his custodial parent. The only benefit I received from filing child support is the DNA testing. AFTER lying to me about his ex-wife SaDonya and him sleeping with other women, to add insult to injury, he accused me of cheating. Then, humiliated me by lying to people saying that I was a mistress he didnt give a fuck about and that I was trying to pin a baby on him that wasn’t his. Because he is in Georgia and I am in California it was difficult for us to agree on what DNA testing company to use. So to make things easier I simply filed for child support knowing that a DNA test would be required by law. Below is a screenshot of our current child support status.

Like I’ve said before Justice’s father is behind on child support payments. I’m not the type of woman that’s going to sit around and wait for some man to help me out with my life. When I was sick during my pregnancy I needed for my son’s father to be there just like any man should be there for a woman he claims he cares for. He chose not to be there. He was asked plenty of times how he wanted to proceed. He was always unable to make a decision. The only solid thing I had heard him say while he was sitting directly in front of me was that he was willing to pay child support. I asked him to physically be there for our son. He refused to be a part of his life. I don’t know what kind of lies he tells when he speaks to other people about me and our son. Whatever he has to say is irrelevant to me. I have no control over that. He has never met our son and he most likely never will. That’s just fine to me. Justice and I will be just fine. We made it this far without him.

At first I was hurt because I felt like I deserved better from my son’s father. But with time I got over it. Because my son’s father made the choice to not physically be there for our son even since before he was born he will always be classified as a deadbeat dad in my eyes. Men need to understand that a child support payment doesn’t suddenly make you a good father. Had Priest shown genuine interest in our son then I would have believed that there was a possibility that he wanted to be a good father. He doesn’t want to be a good father. He’d have to try much harder than he has to prove he is worthy of being in our son’s life . He hasn’t taken any real initiative. It will take more than getting online convincing strangers to believe you’re a good man. You actually have to show me! Not sit around doing a whole bunch of talking. Priest just wants the world to believe that he is doing his best. I’m sorry but my standards are much higher than he is able to reach. He is definitely too lazy to try. As afraid as I was and unprepared to be a mother to a second child I managed to pull it together for my son. I displayed a level of bravery when I could have had an abortion or gave my son up for adoption. Priest did not want me to have an abortion but he did want me to put Justice up for adoption. I knew the only person in the world that could love my son the way he needed to be loved was me. Is me! Also my family wouldn’t allow me to make such a poor decision in regards to my son simply because Priest walked away from us and I wanted my son to have a two-parent home. That wasn’t a good enough reason to give him up for adoption. The foster care system would have been bad for him.

Priest is a coward. He ran from taking care of our son. And he will say anything negative about me that he can find to help justify why he walked away from his own flesh and blood. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again… there are people out there who will refuse to hold him accountable. Those are the people he talks to about me. The people he talks to the most about this are irrelevant. My haters have no say in my life. Idk why he bothers with them at all. The only person that he needs to be talking to about this trying to redeem himself is me. The person he avoids the most is the person that he needs to explain himself to. He has me to answer to. But he’s too busy on the internet trying to depict himself as a victim so that he can receive a adoration from a whole bunch of strangers neither of us know. Continuously taking proverbial steps backwards.

I don’t want this man around me or my son and I hope I never see him again. All he needs to do is sit down shut up and pay his child support… Get a better circle of friends, his GED, a stable well paying job, his own house and car and try to get on my level. I’ve never lied about this man and my experience with him and I never will. I’m not going to waste my energy trying to convince everyone else in the world about my situation with him. Both he and I and God know the truth. The good thing about this is what goes around comes around and I very much believe in karmic energy. So while he does the dog and pony show, tap dancing for whoever he needs to to get the adoration he so desperately desires, I’ll be mothering our son. He’ll be missing out on some of the most amazing experiences imaginable for a man. He won’t see the life of his first born son. If he knew better he wouldn’t even waste his time with interviews, gossip and negativity. He’d be over here trying to figure out what he needs to do as a man to get closer to his son. That’s where he needs to put his energy instead of in the poisonous place he’s putting it.

We are not in each other’s lives so I do not understand why he chose to do an interview online about me recently. We don’t talk. I don’t reach out to him. He doesn’t reach out to me. We are not interested in each other. His attempts at trying to hurt me or embarrass me or whatever malicious intent they were ineffective. I want absolutely nothing to do with him and I am completely fine with the arrangement. I believed that he moved on with his life. But apparently as he was conducting an interview with Youtube content creator Tommy Sotomayor he proved otherwise. It makes sense that he would choose such a terrible platform to express himself. Because the men inside of Tommy Sotomayor’s audience all have disdain for African American women. Tommy himself is a deadbeat to at least 2 of his children he has fathered with multiple mothers. Most of the things that my son’s father has to say wouldn’t be acceptable to a more intelligent and affluent audience of men. So of course he would need to speak to people who can be easily misled. Those who stand for nothing fall for anything. Ignorant people are always addicted to negativity lies and conspiracy theories. It’s easy to entertain a group of socially awkward underachieving men who are having difficult times with their finances marriages and careers.

My son’s father will only be able to relate to men with criminal records, no education and a history of abusive violent behavior. That’s the type of low-energy man he is. No man of high IQ can stomach the idiocracies associated with the men who are entertained by Tommy Sotomayor. The only type of men who could relate to my son’s father would be men who are as unsuccessful in life as he is. Priest would only bring chaos and dysfunction into the life of our son and he has proven that by interacting with Tommy. This isn’t the first time that my son’s father has surrounded himself by people of negative influence who assist him in spreading slander & libel about me. Priest continuing to spread lies and gossip about me just to make himself look better than what he is only proves that what I have said about him and his poor character are all accurate statements. Tommy Sotomayor is known for having the proclivity to disrespect women. As a father getting onto Tommy’s platform speaking disrespectfully about his son’s mother is a step backwards from creating a healthy co-parenting environment for his son. Priest doesn’t bother trying and some wonder why I can’t stand him. This is why. The deflection and lack of determination. No goals or aspirations. Homie…be a father. All of that other shit is irrelevant. Priest can tell the world that I have hammertime on my toes, body odor, three breasts, snakes on my head like Medusa or carpal tunnel it would not matter nor would it change the past or disprove that he is a bad father. So all of the insults he wasted his time throwing at me on Tommy’s Channel or spewing in anyone’s ear who’s willing to listen do not affect me at all.

I don’t hold on to the past. However I will be more vocal about my experiences with him so that other women can be more selective about the men that they choose to bring into their lives.

My son and I live well without his father. I appreciate Priest keeping his toxicity and drama away from us. Moving on with my life was easier than I thought it would be. I love my son. My son loves me. We are all we need.

I Can’t Believe She Made Fun of Me for Being Molested as a Child

(See if you can make it through this blog. I haven’t edited it yet. 😂)

There are definitely some twisted people in this world. I wasn’t sure that was a virtual certainty until I was on YouTube and was severely harassed and stalked. What’s extremely unfortunate is that I was severely harassed by some women. Not a lot of women would indulge in such foolishness. Usually it’s men that harass me severely on YouTube but for some reason I have continuously been harassed by the same woman for 3 years. One would think someone her age would act a little more mature but instead LaVonya Edwards shows a level of ignorance and a lack of compassion for not just me but children in general. She posts vile cartoons of me onto YouTube.  Like who has time to sit around making cartoons about someone they claim they don’t like. A miserable person with too much time on their hands. Not being productive. Someone almost 50 years old participates in elementary school behaviors. She has maliciously addressed my children in my comment sections as well as using her platform to spread vicious rumors about me and my children. I have spoken about this woman’s vitriol behavior plenty of times on my blog. She has attempted to depict herself as some kind of victim of mine continuously speaking publicly of me.  However the truth of the matter is she is the catalyst for all issues she claims she has with me. I have tried on numerous occasions to clear up any type of issue this woman and I may have had in the past. I do not personally know this woman. We have never met. We have never spoke directly to each other offline. She has used my name in a defamatory way to gain attention from the public. I have kept track of all of her negative behaviors and posted those behaviors to this blog.

 

I have spoke a number of times about my experience as a child. I have been extremely transparent about the molestation that I experienced. Sharing my story with others has proven to assist others during their healing process. Molestation happens inside of the black community more frequently than we discuss. These type of indiscretions thrive in privacy. I would have never thought that speaking about it with so much strength and honesty would cause anyone to have a negative response as egregious as the responses that I have received from some people inside of the black community.In addition to speaking about being molested as a child I was also very honest about how it affected my romantic relationships as I got older. Being molested as a child made me look at sexuality in an unhealthy manner. Not in a manner that included me participating in promiscuity but in a manner that made me fear copulation with either sex. The only time I could participate in intercourse would be while I was under the influence of alcohol or drugs. My last relationship was an interesting one. We have a child together. It’s a surprise that we do because our relationship was not based around sex. When he decided that he no longer wanted to be a part of the relationship he viciously posted our text messages onto his own YouTube channel out of frustration. Misleading to the world as if he was this committed married man and I was his mistress he didn’t care about.

He was upset that I had honestly spoke about our breakup. He didn’t want his precious reputation ruined. He wanted everyone to believe that he was the perfect King that I had depicted him to be on my channel for so long. He wanted me to continue to praise this Phantom that he had created and introduced me to. A character that he had created to entertain me. Unbeknownst to me and my family he portrayed himself as the family man, my future husband and loyal friend. When truthfully he was none of the above.As he was playing victim, posting our text messages, exploiting something that was so sacred to me, he shared a text message of him telling me to make sure I bathed. Of course showering is never a problem for me nor was it for him. I was severely ill in a high-risk pregnancy and could barely sit up however I still managed to bathe. My pregnancy was a terrible experience. He never had any sympathy for me. He didn’t care. He didn’t check up on me. I still can’t believe that someone I cared for so deeply would behave in the manner he did. I was extremely catering and kind. I was understanding and patient. I shared my time and my money with this man. I washed his clothes and cooked his food. I drove him to work and brought him lunch. I met his coworkers and his family. This was someone I put all of my trust into. Yet instead of coming on to my channel like I had invited him to so that he could have addressed anything he wanted in regards to what I had said about our break up, he decided to maliciously create his own channel. Only to mislead everyone into believing I was the worst person in the world. I spent most of my time with this man laughing having fun cuddling and holding hands yet he made it seem like I was nothing to him. I told him about how I was molested when I was young. I talked to him about my fears. I talked to him about my desires and my goals and at the end of the day he still betrayed me by interacting with someone he shouldn’t have. Once the public saw the text message we shared about bathing suddenly a rumor started about how I smell. He started to help others perpetuate this rumor that I had vaginal smell. Including LaVonya Edwards. So instead of me taking it to heart negatively I decided to promote a product call Boric Life from a company called Nutri-Blast that helps women with their feminine hygiene. Even though I don’t have the problem myself. I know there are plenty of other women who have experienced the issue. If it wasn’t a problem for most women there wouldn’t be so many feminine health care products.Me promoting this product only happened after two years of being made fun of for vaginal odor that I don’t even have. I spoke in detail during my pregnancy about how different I smelled in general. I also spoke about how one of the symptoms of pregnancy was that anything I smelled made me nauseous. My son’s father’s smell made me nauseous my entire pregnancy. Even when he wasn’t around and I recalled how he smelled it made me nauseous. It wasn’t a usual problem he had unless of course he didn’t eat properly. He had digestive issues. He was on a strict diet and if he wasn’t disciplined enough to stay on this diet he begin to smell. He also had poor oral hygiene. Which was something that he admitted to me after a few months of us being together. He had a nasty excessive habit of spitting. However he did whatever he could to make sure that he did not have a foul odor. These weren’t things I made fun of him about. They were just things that I learned to accept about him, maturely. Unfortunately, he did not return that same maturity.After the release of these text messages I was severely harassed by someone in particular. She used YouTube to create videos about me speaking about my vaginal smell. Speaking of it like she had smelt me herself. For three years now she has made content consistently making defamatory statements about my vagina. She has maliciously lied publicly telling people I have vaginitis and STDs. During a conversation I had about the rumor that was so viciously being spread I said that when I was molested for 6 years during my childhood the men that were molesting me would say that I had vaginal odor. I spoke about how I was aware that when men wanted to make their exs upset or angry  they would call her crazy or say that she has vaginal odor. The equivalent of a woman out of frustration saying that her ex has a small penis.

I was molested as far back as I can remember. I was a child when I was being told that I have vaginal smell. this was being told to me by someone who was cruel and demented. this wasn’t something that was actually true. However, after I made the statement LaVonya Edwards the person who was creating all of the videos about my feminine hygiene twisted that statement and told everyone that I said a whole bunch of men I’ve slept with told me I had vaginal smell. When that was something I never said. Let’s be clear. I said that

when I was a child my stepfather was molesting me and in order to make me feel bad about myself he was telling me ( a six-year-old) that I had vaginal odor.

I know that males say cruel things like that to females to hurt them. Even if I did have vaginal odor, for a woman (almost 50 year old) to continuously make content online for three years in a row about my vagina said something about this woman’s need for a mental health professional. It’s unfortunate to me that any woman what make fun of another as far as something as sensitive as this topic. As women we take pride in our femininity, our motherhood, are marriages, our careers, and our sisterhoods. For any Black woman to lack compassion for another or to place criticism on another for something as severe as the effects of molestation speaks volume about the ignorance inside of the black community. It shows how we have a lack of compassion and understanding for each other’s trials and tribulations. We no longer care about each other’s heart breaks And misfortunes. My Hope for women today as well as women in the future is to have better friendships and better communication during times of controversy or disagreement. I hope that women begin to carry themselves in a more respectable manner so that when they look into the life of another woman instead of placing judgment or being malicious, cruel, jealous or egregious, we extend our hand graciously. Equipped with love and support, with genuine concern and kindness.Being molested was a terrible experience and publicly speaking about it took strength. even my mother took to social media and spoke about it. these are the real conversations that need to take place amongst black women. in a non-judgmental Zone. No woman No Woman should condone any man speaking maliciously or disrespectfully about another woman. In the presence of a real valuable woman all women shall be respected. No man will be able to verbally or physically abuse any woman in my presence. That treatment will not be allowed or tolerated. I will never be a vehicle of belligerent expression that carries the disrespect of feminity. As you grow older always have respect for other women when you are one. Instead of being as disgraceful powerless and castrated (female genital mutilation) as LaVonya Edwards, respect other woman’s motherhood respect other woman’s femininity and most importantly respect the vaginas of other women. Especially when they respect their own.

I’m not hurt by the statements. They just aren’t true. Anyone who is making such a terrible statement like these are angry that I am no longer associating with them. My son’s father included.

Misogyny & Sexism on YouTube

Recently, I saw that Tommy Sotomayor and Minister Jap met up in Chicago. This happened days after Minister Jap took to YouTube claiming he was going to quit posting content. He was frustrated because his videos were being reported. Instead of quitting YouTube it would simply just make more sense to stop breaking YouTube’s community guidelines giving them reason to remove content. Or start a podcast elsewhere.

Youtube’s community guidelines are clear:

Don’t post videos that encourage others to do things that might cause them to get badly hurt. One of these men or both do that EVERYDAY. The men in their audience are taking this advice and screwing up their own lives. Abusing their women ending up in all kinds of domestic violent situations or worse IN JAIL.

YouTube is not for pornography or sexually explicit content. If this describes your video, even if it’s a video of yourself, don’t post it on YouTube. Jap’s always talking about hoes and fucking. Tommy is now supposedly streaming porn from his site….who knows if that’s true. Not my business. Tommy has talked about his sex life explicitly but so have I. Moving on.

YouTube doesn’t support content that promotes or condones violence against individuals or groups based on race or ethnic origin, religion, disability, gender, age, nationality, veteran status, or sexual orientation/gender identity, or whose primary purpose is inciting hatred on the basis of these core characteristics. Promoting and condoning violence on a specific gender and race of person is the basis of Tommy & Jap’s content.

It’s not ok to post abusive videos and comments on YouTube. If harassment crosses the line into a malicious attack it can be reported and may be removed. They both do this all day everyday.

Things like predatory behavior, stalking, threats, harassment, intimidation, invading privacy, revealing other people’s personal information, and inciting others to commit violent acts or to violate the Terms of Use. They have both done this, consistently. Sometimes to defend themselves but most times to be malicious.

Seeing them two meet ultimately made me react in a neutral kind of way. I believe it’s because I tend to mind my business. One thing I can say is that it didn’t surprise me. What they both represent is a disdain for women. Especially Black Women who do not conform to the traditional gender roles expected of them. So let’s say…..Soncerae. They have disdain for Soncerae. They have showed that for many years. Nothing wrong with opinions or objectification but to sprinkle disrespect, harassment and stalking on it gives a rhetoric an entirely different flavor. It’s funny how men on YouTube actually promote it as #UNITY. Like them 2 unifying is some type of remarkable historic event that should be wrote down as the equivalent to the civil rights movement. Listen, get these men to unify with WOMEN. Especially Black ones. Then I’ll be impressed. Men teaming up with other men is what usually happens. Getting injured Black Men to heal and garner healthy relationships with Black Women is the problem. To see both of these men settle down in a healthy marriage with a Black Woman would make me clutch my pearls.

During my first conversation with Minister Jap about collaborating almost 4 years ago he told me about how much of a Tommy Sotomayor fanatic he was. He loved Tommy Sotomayor. His dream was to meet Tommy. I said to him then,

“If you are trying to get Tommy’s attention all you have to do is beef with me. Tommy hates me for some reason.”

THOSE WERE MY EXACT WORDS. From then on Jap has had some imaginary problem with me. Before I interacted with either of them they used social media as a place to disrespect women and to rant about their issues pertaining to us. Instead of just praising the kind of women they enjoy and love. Both of these men had people believing that it was ME that did something to them to make them behave in such a way when really they were attacking women online long before either of them knew who I was.

Male dominance on YouTube produces a lot of hostile commentary targeted towards women. If a woman is honest about her sexually, thinks independently, supports feminism or womanism she is brutally chastised by Black Men. The double standards among women and men on #BlackYouTube are prominent. The mob mentality is supported. Gossip, rumors, debates, disrespect are all used as bonding tools for our audiences. A demented brotherhood designed to dismantle women is celebrated. I believe that most women who support feminism or female empowerment are only interested in positively encouraging women to evolve not to belittle men. However, the message among these men isn’t to empower each other but it is more about the degradation & abuse aimed at women of color. This “brotherhood” is ran by men like Tommy Sotomayor & Minister Jap. Men who have tumultuous relationships with their negligent mothers. Men who also have a history of disrespecting women they are romantically connected to. Whether it be a sister, aunt, cousin or friend at some point these men were treated poorly by a dominant female. Any woman who may share an insufficient similarity to (their poor choices in) women they begin attacking that woman’s entire existence.

Armed with immaturity, poor communication, sadism/sadomasicism, underdeveloped thought processes, lack of critical thinking skill, and PTSD they spread a narrative that women are the catalyst for all problems associated with the dysfunction of the Black Community. Instead of dealing with the trauma associated with the negative experiences brought on by women they may have trusted in their lives, they rather project hatred to any or all women. Instead of considering that how they have responded to women in their past may be cause for the negative outcome, both of these men have spent years on in projecting their hatred for women on women, ME specifically. I became a target for them both for various reasons. Instead of becoming better men themselves they try to bully or “tough love” a woman into changing. What a destructive way to take lead. Instead of building up women they try to break us down. Let Black women form an alliance similar to theirs they’d be ready to protest, stop female unity and create hashtags promoting justice for men. Let a woman behave in any way they do…they wouldn’t stop bitching and moaning.

Instead of being able to form healthy bonds with women they take pride in having solid bonds with other men. Which to me is a tinge of homosexual. However, still an acceptable preference. These men do not understand that just because you love one thing doesn’t mean that you have to hate another. I love ketchup on my french fries. That doesn’t mean I’ve relentlessly put together a smear campaign to destroy mustard and I will execute that plan until mustard is no longer being used on anyone’s sandwich. These men however have reached out to the fatherless, leaderless, lost and injured and recruited them to perpetuate this war on Black Women.

While displaying the following traits

  1. He will zero in on specific woman and choose her as his target.
  2. As time goes on, he begins to reveal a Jekyll & Hyde personality. He may change quickly from irresistible to rude, and from rude back to irresistible.
  3. He will make promises to women and often fail to keep them. With men, on the other hand, he will almost always keep his word.
  4. His behavior toward women in general is grandiose, cocky, controlling, and self-centered.
  5. He is extremely competitive, especially with women. If a woman does better than him socially or professionally, he feels terrible. If a man does better, he may have mixed feelings about it but he is able to look at the situation objectively.
  6. He will unknowingly treat women differently from men in workplace and social settings, allowing men various liberties for which he will criticize female colleagues or friends.
  7. He will be prepared (unconsciously) to use anything within his power to make women feel miserable. He may demand sex or withhold sex in his relationships, make jokes about women or put them down in public, “borrow” their ideas in professional contexts without giving them credit, or borrow money from them without paying them back. Chastise women for their sexuality whether they’ve slept with 1 man or 10 men. It doesn’t matter.
  8. Sexually, he likes to control women and gives little or no attention to their sexual pleasure. Foreplay, if it occurs at all, is only a necessary means to an end. He likes oral sex but only as a recipient. His favorite positions enable him to avoid looking the woman in her eyes.
  9. He will cheat on women he is dating or in a relationship with. Monogamy is the last thing he feels he owes a woman.

These types of men love to put women down only to make them feel good about themselves. To see these two men unify but can’t seem to smooth out any drama that they are the catalyst for with ANY woman says a lot about where they stand mentally. Men who all act tough, with false bravado, are always the ones that get knocked the fuck out with ease.

There are a lot of men who are looking for leaders, father figures, big brothers, uncles, and mentors. Men turn to men like these to teach them how to become alpha. The toxic masculinity displayed by both of these men is perceived as positive and indicative to the evolution of Manhood. Which is ultimately unfortunate.

I have never done anything to either of these men for them to have spoken so disrespectfully about me hundreds of times in public forums while encouraging men to also be as disrespectful towards me. They even lied and told people I was stalking them and wouldn’t leave them alone. After initiating conflict EVERYTIME. They told vicious lies about me & put a magnifying glass on my videos and what I’m saying as if it was about THEM. I made more content geared towards other topics that they conveniently overlooked. Tommy was heated when I interviewed his ex on my channel like he hadn’t interviewed Chris Law. I made her promise not to say anything disrespectful or hurtful. And she agreed and kept her word. But did Tommy do that for me? No. He had Chris Law all over his channel claiming he was my ex and talking about our sex life. Chris was so dumb disrespecting me and his marriage.

I no longer expect abusive men to hold punches, feel compassion or sympathy for women. They have verbally attacked me so much that it doesn’t even bother me anymore. Minister Jap & Tommy Sotomayor have caused thousands of strange men to maliciously speak about me online. This has caused men to stalk and harass me in real life. These men have barked on me like I am a man. Men I have never met. They want to square up on a woman. Ofcourse I have expressed my opinion about these men. But why in response were they so defensive.

When we are defensive it is a sign of weakness; it shows we are not secure enough in ourselves to accept criticism or differences of opinions.

Encouraging men to be vitriol online is causing them to disconnect from women offline as well as abuse us. Egregiously sexist behavior is fostered by the “online disinhibition effect.” This effect includes the phenomenon where Internet users, operating under the protection of anonymity, may perform behaviors they ordinarily would not in either face-to-face scenarios or in virtual spaces where they are identifiable. Studies have shown links between anonymity and higher levels of online aggression and incivility. This creates an unconscious behavior that ultimately effects romantic relationships negatively in real life settings with women. Creating more of a problem that ultimately a man was attempting to solve by going to social media looking for resolutions.

There are plenty of men out there who are easily influenced. I didn’t realize I was dating one until Minister Jap got a mental hold on my son’s father.

When his words during our arguments started to sound like they were coming out of Jap’s mouth verbatim I knew Jap was talking to him. My son’s father was speaking to me in ways he had never spoke to me before. Calling me names he had never called me before. Yelling at me how Jap had online in the past. A month or so before his behavior changed drastically, Jap called me begging me to break up with my son’s father. I refused. What’s funny is Jap had this whole women empowerment speech. Like I had the vagina of wonder woman. He kept calling my son’s father “Dirty Dick Rodney.” He couldn’t persuade me so he went to my son’s father and the rest is history. Now Minister Jap can push the whole “single mom drag”. That’s all he seems to be good at. The rhetoric coming from Tommy & Japs mouth was she’s a side chick pregnant by a married man. My son’s father wasn’t married then and definitely isn’t now.

My son’s father is impressionable. He follows anyone and anybody. He doesn’t have a GED or College Education. I used to have to read to him and he doesn’t know basic math. Ofcourse he was an easy target. Most of the men in Minister Jap & Tommy’s audience are. Most men who are college educated and had a good male role model in their lives disagree with the narratives of these men. It’s ok to be impressionable if your attention is on a good influence. My son’s father was always looking for approval. He’d lie to get it because he wanted people to love him. He is an example of a man who does not know how to decipher the difference between a good influence and a bad one. His only goal was social acceptance.

These type of men on YouTube don’t want to coexist on YouTube or any other place with women. Like YouTube personally belongs to them. They have literally tried to run off every single woman with a voice on the site. They tried their hardest to run me off. It didn’t work. I’m still here. Still vocal. No matter how many names they call me. No matter how many times they attack me or try to put me down. No matter how many lies they tell or rumors they spread I’ll still express my opinions and stand up for whatever it is I believe in on whatever social media site I want to.

I have no personal vendettas against either of these men. I have moved on with my life. I am happy and very much living the life I wanted to live. I could have 1 subscriber on youtube or several hundred, it won’t matter at the end of the day. What these men choose does not make or break me. I do not digest what they eat. It’s not my business. If men are ok with allowing these type of men to lead them… fine. Just like it’s women out there who believe “Hot Girl Summer” is a women’s empowerment anthem. Whether I agree or disagree, I’m not going to spend the rest of the days of my life debating with abusive men. I just accept that they are abusive and stay away from them. Hope fully women will hear my stories and the stories of plenty others and stay away from men like this. And maybe injured men who are in need of guidance will find a better place to receive love and adoration. Instead of relying on the poisonous sources on social media. I wish both of these men the best. Finally, Jap’s dream came true. To meet Tommy Sotomayor.