I used to cry so hard. I never felt a pain so excruciating. To be humiliated in front of everyone, it broke me. My family, my friends, my coworkers, my audience, EVERYONE. I thought I had finally found someone that truly loved and respected me and I made sure I gave him that love and respect in return. I spoke about him in my videos. I did radio and tv interviews about my relationship with him. We were featured in magazines and on popular Instagram accounts that promoted Black Love. We had pictures and video that proved our love for one another. I was building my life around a man that I was sure would be a great husband, father and friend. I thought we’d definitely grow into being best friends with time. Our relationship was new but the guarantee of longevity was not out of reach. Something in me told me he’d be around me forever. I wanted to spend the rest of my time on this earth being happy, healthy and free. I expressed that to him so many times. I asked over and over was he ready to love me, build a family and a solid future and he reassured me so many times over and over and over.
We spiritually connected with each other, Priest and I. I had so much fun with him. I laughed. I was comfortable. I was free. It’s hard to feel free in a relationship. I told him if he ever felt like he wasn’t free in our relationship then I’d let him go. It broke my soul in half when someone told me that he had publicly said that he never loved me. Someone who said I love you to me every morning didn’t love me. I loved him and he never loved me. We seemed so happy and I never saw that coming.
I never imagined that one day he’d tell me he didn’t love me, he didn’t want our baby and that he’d want to get back with Sonya.
I think accepting that he didn’t want a relationship with me anymore was not hard. It just wasn’t fair. How he handled me was unfortunate. How could my friend treat me so unfair? He waited until I was 4 months pregnant to tell me he was never over his ex. After I asked him over and over and over about her and reassured me so many times. So did she. Yes, even she said their relationship was over. Apparently they were both ready to get out of their bitter marriage. They lied to me. They led me to believe they didn’t love each other. That’s what hurts. I WAS NEVER THIS MAN’S MISTRESS! I WAS NEVER HIS SIDE CHICK!
If they wanted to be together all they had to do was tell me. Instead it was a secret among many secrets. I was manipulated by them both.
I could front for the public or lie to people about my life but I’ve chose not to do that for a number of reasons. Reasons I’ve explained on my YouTube channel a few times. I would always share silly stories about my experiences with men. When I started dating Priest it was no different. He wasn’t the first guy I dated that I brought on my channel. He was the first one that I was in a full blown committed relationship with. When Sonya contacted me saying I was making videos about her and Priest. I was confused. She was speaking as if he was with HER and NOT me. He was my man and I was going through a break up with him. She was the least of my concerns. I was trying to figure out what in the hell was wrong with him. He was suddenly breaking up with me to go back to her. The days before that he seemed confused and out of it. Like he was mentally impaired. No one knew her name or who she was, Sonya. They only knew of he and I. It was only a matter of time before she claimed that she wanted to clear her name. She then came on to YouTube doing hurtful interviews lying about our entire situation. Making the two of them out to be this perfect couple that I tried to destroy. Meanwhile privately making it seem like she had nothing to do with the drama on social media when in actuality she was the catalyst for. No one would have known who she was at all. No one initially cared. They were more concerned about why Priest left me to die during a high risk pregnant in a cheap hotel room. Which is something she also denied having knowledge of publicly. I literally had to post our private texts messages proving that she did know that he abandoned me in a hotel alone. In our text messages she was pretending like she had no idea where he was. It wasn’t until month later that I found out that the entire time I was looking for him he was laid up somewhere with her.
After all of that love Priest pretended to have I shouldn’t have been surprised when he wasn’t there for Justice’s birth. He wasn’t around for his virtual baby shower. He had literally stopped answering the phone and texts when he left. He blocked my number and he blocked me on social media. He was publicly calling me a hoe, saying I was a side chick he never cared about and that our son wasn’t his. He made me out to be this woman who tried to get him to leave his wife. When really they both led me to believe their marriage was over before I even came around. She knew who I was before I even knew she existed.
He didn’t want to admit that he played with my life. They both did. He didn’t want to take accountability for his mistakes. He just wanted me to disappear. He wished I wasn’t pregnant. He wished Justice wasn’t real.
I can’t understand how a man can go from being happy we were having a baby, rubbing my stomach and even naming our son to then suddenly claiming that he didn’t love me and that he and Sonya had a bond that couldn’t be broken.
A bond? A bond that’s thicker than blood? I question this bond. He had already left her hanging before. Both of then had already stepped out of their marriage. Sometimes people get the short end of the stick, so him leaving me seemed like a part of life. I can understand him wanting to fix his marriage with her or if he wanted to move on from her and be with me. Both make sense. Both can happen. But to turn his back on Justice for a woman? I will never be able to understand why any man would want that. He and Sonya don’t have children together. They have a 14 year marriage filled with dysfunction, distrust, cheating, physical and verbal abuse as well as poverty and a number of other issues I don’t care to share. The fact that he’d choose to live a mundane life with a woman 10 years his senior, who has a mugshot, over a healthy stable relationship with me is disturbing in itself.
In his interview on YouTube he tried to make up any reason he could find to explain why he didn’t want to be with me and why our baby wasn’t his. He accused me of cheating. He accused me of lying. None of which were true. I never cheated on him. I never lied to him. NOT EVER. They both lied to me. He admitted in the video he lied me. He admitted that he’d lie to me just to see how I would respond or to get me to do what he wanted me to do. She admitted that she told me that their marriage was over. That is so sad. It makes me so sad. He wanted to have control over me and when he couldn’t he tried to control how other people perceived me. Like I was just some homewrecker who tried to break up a marriage. Like I was the woman who wanted a man to leave his wife for me. Like I wasn’t told divorce papers were signed. Like I wasn’t promised that I had nothing to worry about. Not just by him and her but his family. THE MARRIAGE WAS OVER!!! All of the apologies and the times he has cried in front of me was all him pretending to care about someone other than himself.
Now the test results are in and just like before all I’ve wanted was for Priest to be a father. That’s it. I don’t care about the child support check. He’s going to be a Father to Justice one way or another. Either he’s going to be their physically and financially. Or he can just be their financially. But he will take responsibility.
He broke my heart. I still feel pain in my heart every time I think about him. My eyes even water. Neither of them cared about how their actions would make me feel. He made me give up even talking to anyone he thought I used to date or even shared any type of romantic tie to. I gave those people up so easily. To me, he was my husband. I would’ve gave up anything for him. All I asked him to do was to make sure he got his divorce and I’d stick around. I started losing money because of him. I lost clients because of him. I lost long term friendships because of him. I felt like he was worth it. His love, his adoration, his presence. Meanwhile he thought I was trash but had never treated me that way until after I was pregnant. I never seen a man change so quickly. He became disrespectful, verbally abusive, hard to talk to. Still to this day communicating with him over the phone can barely take place without him calling me out my name or saying something so cruel and ugly I have no choice but to insult him back. I feel like I’m talking to a child. So it’s now to a point where I don’t want to talk to him or see him at all.
Our son was only a few weeks old when Sonya called my mother’s phone and ended up speaking to me. She tried to convince me that I was a good manifestor. Knowing I believe in metaphysics and the Law of Attraction she told me that I was powerful. She said that I wanted a son and I got one. Not knowing it was Priest who wanted a son. When I was pregnant it was him who told me that he only makes boys. I didn’t care the gender. I was just surprised I was pregnant. She told me he was my soulmate not hers and that I manifested my marriage to him. I wanted to manifest my foot up her ass and snatch the weave off her head when she also told me that they live together and that I shouldn’t take that personal because it’s their arrangement out of convenience. Their entire marriage has been out of convenience. I’m surprised she hasn’t picked up on that. The shits definitely not about love or some deep bond he claims to have with her. Priest wants someone to take care of him. He wants someone who will help him financially. He used her as much as he’s used me. He can’t take care of himself. He barely wants to drive a car everyday. He is looking for a momma. Not a wife, not a girlfriend, not a son. He only told me what he thought I needed to hear so I could share my money with him. So when he realized I had lost sources of income and wasn’t making the money I used to his dreams of using me went down the drain. Now I was trash. I couldn’t pay 50% anymore. I was sick. I was pregnant. Not worth energy anymore. He couldn’t stand my little 15%. It wasn’t enough to him. He thought Sonya was doing better than me so he ran back to her.
That uneducated manchild is looking for a come up.
I work hard. Two jobs. Two businesses. I don’t live paycheck to paycheck like I used to. I’m not on government assistance. I was on WIC for 6 months after Justice was born per suggestion of my YouTube subscribers and my doctors. I don’t need Priest’s child support check. I don’t want anything from him. When I needed him to be there for Justice and I he turned his back on us. It took me a long time to finally get to this point I’m at now financially, emotionally, spiritually and mentally. People have continued to give Justice and I donations and gifts. It helps with our stability and I definitely appreciate the help. I still have Justice’s college fund and any of the money I receive from Priest will be put into that fund. All I wanted was to be loved, held and respected and for my son to be loved. Priest promised me forever. Not just with his words but with his actions. And when those actions were no longer being displayed I was falling apart on the inside. Nothing breaks like a heart. Nothing. However, I never did anything to purposely hurt him or get back at him. I saw no point in revenge or retaliation. He accuses me of doing things to purposely hurt him all of the time. Like I’d try to ruin his life. THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND HIM. He knows he tried to ruin my life so he’s waiting for me to make his life hell. I’m not.
I told my story publicly because it’s my responsibility. I am a leader. Plenty of women watch me and need to be inspired. Women need to know they are not alone. I have people who look to me for guidance. I am proof that when we are at our lowest we can improve. We can overcome it. We can love again. We can experience happiness again.
I’m not the mistress who had an affair with a married man and had a baby. I was with a man who was in the process of getting divorced and he and his wife promised me that their marriage was over. He and I planned an amazing future together. I knew he was separated and I took a chance on him and her. Hoping he was a stand up guy and that she was an honest woman. But he wasn’t, and she lied to me.
There are no words to describe what was taken from me. The joy that was ripped from me when I should have been celebrating new life. The depression, the counseling, the hate mail, the emotional eating, the break downs, the names people were calling me, I had to overcome. And I did. I hope I never see
Priest again. I’m never getting married. I’m not having anymore kids. I’m celibate and I don’t want a relationship. He took the side of my enemies, made strangers who were against me his allies. How can I trust another man with my life again?…..I just can’t.
During my last conversation on the phone with Priest he said to me that he was doing what he was doing to me because he’s my friend. He mocked me asking him about our friendship. He maliciously said, “That’s what you get for fucking with somebody’s husband.” Like he literally has disassociated himself from the entire situation as if it’s make believe. Like he had nothing to do with it. He really believes his own lie, that I came into his life trying to convince him to leave his wife. When they both came to me supposedly separated and never getting back together. Now he wants to play the devoted husband role just to have a place to stay. Instead of manning up, getting a better paying job and taking care of himself.
Two good things came out of my relationship with Priest. Justice and my clothing line “Yahaura”. Which I created for Priest so he could have another source of income. I’m getting my happiness and I am at peace and no one will take that away from me. Not Priest. Not Sonya. And definitely not haters on social media.
*In the above image that includes a copy of the paternity test results Justice and Priest’s legal names including any other private information have been purposely blocked out from public view. Priest’s test was taken in Decatur, GA. Justice’s was taken in Fremont, CA. Labcorp’s headquarters is in North Carolina. The results were sent from there and that’s why the notary is in the state of North Carolina. Sonya Washington is NOT Priest’s wife’s legal name.